I am so tired of staring at the computer that my eyes are all watery...
Thank God i have Pi as my company..

Im amazed at how Martel describes the mere fear..

I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent.Only fear can defeat life.It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unearring ease. It begins in your mind, always. One moment you are feeling calm, self-possesed, happy. Then fear, disguised in the garb of mild mannered doubt, slips into your mind like a spy. Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out....
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Quickly you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies : hope and trust. There you've defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you.
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... you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Becauese if you dont, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never ruly faught the opponent who defeated you..

If you dont believe i copied it all manually.. typing it word by word..... well mister you'd better believe it!.