Sunday, June 22, 2014

Sebak di dada tiada siapa yg tahu (chewah)

A friend posted this on our whatsapp group and now I miss feta cheese, tomato basil with mozzarella, blackberries, sweet cherry tomatoes, mueller corners and all the amazing food at John Lewis' and M&S' food court ��.

Masa study dulu tak mampu dan tak terpikir pon nak membeli belah di sana sb yerla duit is better used for phone bills yg menggunung , sewa rumah dan belanja harian. Dah kerja and lebih berkemampuan ni tak de peluang pulak nak membeli sgt sb they're all perishibles and tak boleh bawak balik Malaysia. :-( 

After holiday depression is hard :-(. Im forever thankful for the 9 wonderful days abroad and I'm not complaining one bit .. I just have a little trouble coping the aftermath. Thats all...


Monday, June 02, 2014

It's been a long time coming

I wish I could make beautiful videos like you.
and take stunning non pretentious non hipster wanna be photos.

But until then.. I shall keep on posting and keep on on trying.

Just the right time for me to pick up the camera back.

but until then.. 

Friday, May 23, 2014

The downside is just your ego.

I'm always thankful that every time I am having second thoughts or when I'm a little down, God sends me a helpline in the form of an Amerian Indian man and some interview transcript.

Jay: Think about anybody, you’re young, you don’t have any kids. I’ve got seven that are older than you. So the first time a child tries to walk, or talk, or eat, or poo-poo, or ride a bicycle, what happens?
Ramit: They fail.
Jay: It’s a nightmare.
Ramit: Yeah.
Jay: And if somebody doesn’t support them, re-encourage them, put them back on the horse. So it’s almost like the statistical probability is you are going to fail. It’s almost this, this is an aside, but I laugh all the time when people say “Well I’m calling people, and I’m just getting their voicemail” when they’re trying to sell anything, or make contact. And I go “Well, statistically what do you expect? Most people have no plan on getting a voicemail, they’re shocked.”
Ramit: Yeah.
Jay: I have, my strategies, I expect to get a voicemail. So it’s a way of critical thinking, and most people aren’t very good critical thinkers.
Ramit: Well what I’m hearing you say, like being realistic is the most critical part of it. When you first start, expect to fail.
Jay: Yeah.
Ramit: You’re not going to be great. But if you walk, and saying as we say “It’s not a failure, it’s a test.” We tested part one, didn’t work, great let’s move on to the next strategy, oh that doesn’t work? Move on to the next one. And like you said, you ran 33 tests with that furniture company. If you had walked away with the first one saying “I’m just not good at this” that would have been the end of the game.
Jay: Well here’s what people don’t realize, and I learned this very early in my life, and it was profound. That if you, that you, and I don’t have the right to make any decision ourselves unless we want mediocrity, or a suboptimal outcome. We have the obligation, the privilege to ask the market, that means a test. You can test a lot of suppositions.
I mean I can get into variability, and you know more probably than I do, but I’ve been exposed to millions, and billions of millions of dollars of variable tests, but most of these people don’t realize you can test a lot of suppositions, and the downside is just your ego. Who cares? 

Ramit: Yeah. Yeah.
Jay: Who cares? If you look at the, I mean, here’s the irony, let’s look at the ultimate testers. Let’s look at the venture capitalists, they’re testing 25 companies to find one that might win, and they’re happy with that. Why should you think that you’re brighter than they are? Why should you think I’m going to hit it on the first, I mean that’s delusional, and it’s beating yourself up unnecessarily.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Miss Saigon

Sometimes I miss my old job, just because it was simpler, it required less brain cells and the expectations were lower.

But I think those were all the reasons I left that job.

It wasn't challenging enough.
Im pretty sure I can do soo much more.
It was too easy and the work pace was too slow.

And here I am with everything that I have ever asked in a job and yet aku rasa PENAT.

I think the organization it self is pretty fabulous and I like the way they work.

Maybe its the people on top?

I guess people do leave because of their bosses..

Either way I am learning TONNES so I shall just have to stick it out for now.

hope your day is better than mine

peace and Im out.

Friday, April 25, 2014


Sorry for not updating in awhile.

I've  just started the #100happydays project on Instagram.

See u there!

Friday, April 18, 2014

Kan Cheong Kitchen

Sometimes I just feel like I want to walk into my imaginary nerd cave, stay there, stare at a computer screen and do elaborate mind numbing coding.

If you dont know this about me, I actually enjoy computers, codes, programming and my new found love EXCEL.

I think thats why I love being an Engineer. Obsessing about tiny little details, putting in the span style="color: orange;" or the =SUBTOTAL(9,F4:F483). Im not a creative programer mind you and I know very few programming languages but I'm good at copying and using it to customize things the way I want it. 

The thing about my new job is that it is THE whole opposite of being a nerd (okey wrong emphasize on the word THE there but who cares). It is so far away from from being a nerd,  that is actually at the other end of the nerd spectrum. Heck its actually nearer to the socialite-hyper-extrovert end, which is actually outside of the nerd spectrum.

I would be lying if I say I am not a tiny bit an extrovert or I hate meeting people but socializing in a work context and meeting people in an office environment is just so different from how u interact with people in a social setting. Sometimes it can be a little taxing and those are the times when I wish I could just be in my old Engineer bubble.

Those are also the times when I have this existential crisis and question why I am here in the first place. But then.. just before i drown in self pity that tiny overachiever voice inside of me starts to talk and I would be thanking my lucky stars to be where I am right now.

Sigh... susahkan jadi kiasu?  :-P

Peace out!