Caring is creepy

numbness has never really existed in my dictionary...
Im either excited... agitated..delirious.. paranoid.. sugar-high..sleepy..upbeat..confused..you get the drift..
but lately i seem to be lacking in any particular feeling...
its like an empty void.. kosong...filled with nothingness
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behind my dark shades... with a soundtrack blasting trough the speakers...my drive back home turns into a technicolor movie..like in a scene where everything is in slow motion.. and suddenly you start to realise the birds flying back for the evening. the trees swaying in the wind...leaves falling on to the tar.. the cars are no longer the main characters...the rumble of the engine ignored..
seriously its a bizzare effect..maybe its the choice of music.. maybe its the weather.. or maybe its just the cheap shades..whatever that was.. i sure dont mind having another dose of that..