The one with the magic 8 ball

After 9 months into the new unit.. i can finally say that i have mastered the "i-have-no-idea-about-this-shit-but-i-know-i-look-confident-enough-to-pull-this-off", when the bosses sent me to this meeting which i had no idea what the issue was nor who the hell i was meeting..

Thursday evening : the boss came.boss gives me a bunch of papers. boss talks for 2 minutes.boss shows me new suggested design. ask boss how am i to justify new design. boss gives one single sentence. then says dont worry someone else will help to answer all the other questions. boss leaves. and i didnt even know whether someone is coming to the meeting or not.
now thats what we call faith, people

So this morning.I went .. i sat.. and i listened. Pushed what necessary document to the right person and just sat throught the meeting trying to look clever. Lucky enough the technical parts wasnt really hard to get. Although earlier before the meeting one of the guys... who thought i was representing CMU (a non technical unit) had the cheek to say.. "U ganti *** ke?..okeylaa.. tp nih very technical la.. ..." looking at me with the "im-sorry-but-i-dont-think-you'll-get-any-of-this-crap"..
sheeshh just because i came with my purple kebaya and all nicely dressed up dia ingat aku tak tau technical!...*exasperated hand signals*

so i realised things given time..will work out well.. as long as you enjoyed what you were doing.. as long as you wanted it to happen.. I worked for 8 months in the old unit.. and never a day did i feel happy about it.. never a day did it became easier..I knew first because it was a crappy job anyway.. and second because i really really dint want it from the start.. with the new job.. there were ups and downs.. and sometimes you really feel like just quitting and leave.. but if you stayed and worked it out.. slowly and maybe sometimes even painfully..i realised it wasnt that bad after all..

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There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you
And I'll look after you

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Ive always wanted great things in life.. amazing things.. and you know what?.. aku rasa dia amazing...
kau rasa dia trust aku enough tak to let me trust dia?