The day I sold my soul

i wish i had a passion.

pas·sion –noun
1. any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate.
2. strong amorous feeling or desire; love; ardor.
3. strong sexual desire; lust.
4. a strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire for anything: a passion for music.
5. the object of such a fondness or desire: Accuracy became a passion with him.
6. an outburst of strong emotion or feeling: He suddenly broke into a passion of bitter words.

I wish i strongly believed in something so much, it would be the center of my attention. I would work so hard on it to make it happen.. to make it great... and that is all i would be thingking about. yeah sure..

I have a passion for knowledge ( yet i buy no-brainers when i go to the magazine shop)
I have a passion to have a hot body ( yet i dont exercise as much as i need to)
I have a passion to have lots of money (yet im working in a company that doesnt pay me much)
I have a passion to travel ( yet im not yet in the job I want to be able to do this oftenly)
I have a passion to do things that i love ( yet I still wonder what im most passionate about)
I have a passion to rant on like that cute girl who write about everyday activities without sounding like a stupid girl ( yet I am not her and i can be so melodramatic sometimes)

Passion must come with patience me thinks.aku selalu cemburukan orang yg ada high sense of belief in something that they believe(is that ayat making any sense) tp aku selalu mencari cari dalam hati kecil ku ..apa yg aku believe.
yang pasti
i believe in having fun. in making my heart happy. in having a day where i wake up with a smile. where i sing when i drive to work in the morning.. and i come back home with a skip and a hop.. But that cant be a real passion can it?
Some people are passionate about politics..some about music .. some about religion.. some about the little rocks they collect.. So Im sure theres more to what my passion is. Sometimes i believe that i have a passion for something but its just not the right time.. and im just waiting for the perfect moment to kick it off.. but yet im so afraid that when that moment comes.. Id have lost my passion and fear would take the better of me..
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Dont u just hate it. when sometimes u see such greatness in another person, ure intimidated by it.
Aku tak suka perasaan itu.
Perasaaan self-doubt. when u start to question your own capabilities.
Bila kau rasa kau not worth it.
The truth is, u are capable of such excellence cuma kadang kala kau tenggelam dalam kekaguman kau pada orang lain.

or maybe self-doubt is a good thing..so ure planted to the ground.
so we're not complacent.
so that we work harder..
so that we think more..

then again..
maybe ure just not that great.

yeah dont u just hate self-foubt.