Devine intervention

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours
-jason Mraz-Im Yours-

alas i am back in the Island again.. home sweet home.. the drive back was surprisingly not as unpleasant as i thought it would be.. apparently most of the Deepavali crowd have gone back on thursday and the Raya travellers started their journey on Saturday.. so we were lucky...
Its great to be home.. Ive missed the cat.. the computer... the fast internet connection...the familiarity.. the comfort...( and yes of course mom and dad..but that just goes without saying...)

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recently i have been put in a position of making what i think as one of the biggest decisions i would ever make in my life..you know.. one of those life changing decisions..
and the thing that makes it harder, is the fact that it will force some sacrifices by all my loved ones..its easy when youre the only one affected and youre the only one who'd deal with the impact but when it comes to your loved ones.. you do have to ponder a bit more rather than just make the normal impromptu decision.
still..no matter what i choose to do.. what may seem to be a once in a lifetime opportunity ..in the end..still boils down to the shackles that bound me.. so before i start counting my chickens, i also have to prepare myself for the emotional letdown, in the case where i finally find out that id be forever trapped by the invisible cage..but as i have always said, i am a believer in the silver lining..and i know that the coming cloud will have one too..
whatever it is, i think have gone too far to just throw in the towel now, without going for that final battle, and as much as it will effect all parties.. i do hope that their support will be forever with me.. and may their prayers also be mine..apa apa pon... no matter what happens... i hope it will be whats best for all of us...