"I don't like perfection, its very dull"

They made a statue of us and put it on a mountain top

2012-01-28T02:05:00.001+08:00

Winter has a romantic feeling to it.
U just want to curl up with the one u love while sharing a nice cup of hot cocoa.

I loved walking in the white snow. Yes it was freezing. Yes it did annoy me a bit but that melancholic feeling u get.. It's sort of a good kind of sadness.if u get what I mean? I don't know how to describe it but it's a welcoming sorrow. Something u want to drown yourself into further.

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Romance aside.. My body is just not made for this kind of weather.
Which makes me wonder how I survived three years in London, where it's always gloomy,cold, wet and grey.
Too many negative words to describe one city. Yet too many fond memories to make me hate it.
I love and will always LOVE LOVE it.

2012-01-24T13:28:00.001+08:00

Oh and btw my face hurts! I didnt bring a thick enough moisturiser thats suitable for this cold and dry weather.

Now its all kasar kering and sakit!

I shall go and find 50 Euro face creams later..
Just because i can and
Because my skin depends on it!

írhatsz bejegyzéseket!

2012-01-24T13:17:00.001+08:00

Im blogging from Budapest! Im always looking for ways to post pictures on the blog when im on my travels using the iPhone but baru sedar rupanya dlm blogger app bole?! Hallaluujaaah!

I love my iPhone!

Yes it can do everything!
Even bake bread and cut steel.
:-P

They call me an alien, a big headed astronaut

2012-01-14T11:28:00.001+08:00

I hate.. H.A.T.E waking up early on weekends.

I would like to believe that is the main reason for my failed career as a marathon runner :P because I do not like waking up at ungodly hours of the morning to go for long distance running...

But..

The feeling u get when u manage to settle two major things before 9.30 am on a Saturday morning is just awesome!

Now I'm already on the way to jln Tar for some last minute errands before our epic journey next weekend. Tapi jam la pulak ..Haishh...

Its over and done

2012-01-06T17:02:00.001+08:00

And so it is just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
most of the time
And so it is the shorter story
No love, no glory

Self preservation

2011-12-28T11:26:00.001+08:00

Isn't it weird how through a blog you can learn the entire history of a persons relationship?

or how within a few unrealised meetings or gatherings you miss people's life changing events?

Things evolve so quickly these days..

u blink and u miss your sons first step or your friend getting engaged.

Isn't it just weird?

Without hope or agenda

2011-12-24T08:32:00.002+08:00

This year I made one of the biggest decisions in my life and reverted to being a student in something totally unrelated to what i do in real life, surprising myself by actually enjoying it and doing pretty well at it.

This year i finally had the courage to follow my heart and intuition. Trusting what Jobs said "They somehow already know what you truly want to become."

This year I realised that at my age you have pick and choose your friends. There are times you just have to move on and be glad that you had this experience. Know that there are more people out there who appreciate you as who you are.

This year MHM and I made out biggest purchase ever and hopefully everything will be well by the mid of next year.

This year i added another actor to my list of favourites, Dustin Hoffman (Rain man), Paul Bettany (A Knight's Tale) and now Jeremy Renner who was amazing in The Hurt Locker, a bit too Bostonian for me in The Town but totally redeemed himself in Mission Impossible 4. A calm smooth exterior with a touch of unpretentious humour if i may say.

This year i got my self my own virtual personal assitant!

And this year.. the year that i was hoping for my big break but eventually got turned down and my spirits broken for awhile is also the year where i truely start to believe when people say "When God closes a door, He opens a window" and God is with those who are patient.. because at the end of the day the reward just makes 340 days of waiting totally worth it.

To me this year has been one of the most colourful years yet... there might be some streaks of grey but it was tinged with bright yellow and blue.

Here's to 2012! A year that i know will blow my mind! Thank you 2011.
I may aged a decade but I lived a year.

All things equal..

2011-12-11T00:18:00.001+08:00

Where i shall be

2011-11-27T22:37:00.001+08:00

Be still my heart

2011-11-22T13:43:00.001+08:00

Soon my dear..

Very soon..

Four O four

2011-11-05T16:08:00.002+08:00

I miss days like these.. where i pour myself into tiny details like the size of the font, the right closing and opening keys, the width of the picture, the intensity of the colour, the exact words to the feeling.

A nice quiet day with the command key, a fast internet connection and a clear wide screen.

I could stay for hours like this.

The only thing missing is a photo to complete the entry.

It's always darkest before the dawn

2011-11-05T15:39:00.001+08:00

I'm loving Blogger's new dynamic view.

Wish i had more pictures though because i think the new layout supports better image sharing and viewing.

Loving it.
You guys rock!

I love technology.
:-)

p/s : if u don't see any difference to the layout.. then there's a possibility your browser/equipment does not support dynamic viewing. Time to upgrade! hee

My camera shy cat

2011-10-30T22:51:00.005+08:00

My camera's back (finally!)I miss snapping random photos (as if i still have the time)

btw

Masterchef Malaysia is such a snooze fest! Dont get me wrong.. the activities are awesome and im sure the participants are too.. but Oh MY GOD! they couldnt have found any duller chef judges? Come auwn... at least get someone with a little bit of personality. Its television for heaven's sake!
And i know they're trying to cater to Malay viewers but forcing everyone to speak in this slightly wierd baku Malay way is just too much man.. too much.

on other news
the office blocked blogspot (among other websites)
BOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

besides that?
life's ok.
fullstop

Everything else is secondary.

2011-10-10T10:54:00.001+08:00

It has been 4 weeks of me settling into my new life and despite the lack of rest, it has been pretty amazing.

Of course these days i sleep with formulas running in my head but i guess finally having a purpose in life beats sleep deprivation. Always.

I'm still praying for the ultimate dream package which will solve all or most issues but that will take awhile before anything actually happens.. IF it happens.

Until then business, tight schedules, sleep deprivation and driving around like a lunatic (and MHM.. ahem) is keeping me content and satisfied.

As the King himself puts it .. "everything else is secondary.."

Stay Hungry, Stay foolish

2011-10-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary

- Steve Jobs : 2005 Stanford Commencement Address -

May you rest in peace.

oh this is funny

2011-09-20T16:07:00.002+08:00

Joyeux anniversaire

2011-09-11T20:55:00.001+08:00

One wedding
Two cats
Three change of addresses
Four friends lost
Five years of love
Six (at least) official 10km runs
Seven years in the same company
Eight diamonds
Nine contries travelled
Ten years of pouring my heart and soul on a tiny little screen

It all all started during summer of 2001 and in September 2011 its still going strong.

Happy 10 years www.sunnylittlesquare.com !

Nota utk Cinta

2011-09-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

Salamba Sirsasana

2011-09-09T09:19:00.000+08:00

I finally managed to do a supported headstand (against the wall) WITHOUT ASSISTANCE!

*Does the Cat DJ dance* (Search Youtube Cat DJ)

and i did in the following order.

Alhamdulillah. The feeling is indescribable.

Everyda-ay Auwm Shuffel-ling

2011-09-06T12:53:00.012+08:00

Raya was "shuffling". I would put up picture's of all of us being silly but takut nanti dijadikan bukti if one of us ends up becoming a politician in the future..

*ahaks*

Glee Project

2011-09-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

I am a big fan of this guy. He has a gorgeous voice and such raw talent. I give you my favourite clip of him.

And apparently he's a fan of Kings Of Leon too! :-)

2011-09-03T12:26:00.000+08:00

Blogger has a new dashboard interface, complete with site stats,traffic sources ..the works. Pretty awesome. I am loving this new modern clean look.

If only i could give the same clean look to my blog too. I'm just getting to know Adobe InDesign after some persuasion from the BIL to get it for some other application but i also saw there's options to do some CSS designs. Maybe I'll check that out later.

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I'm still in Eid mode, although we have stopped eating ketupat rendangs etc. And despite MHM not being around for the first few days of Eid and me being sick like a dog.. it was still very enjoyable. And i am loving the fact the in-laws and the parents place are only 5 minutes apart. Which means that i can have dinner at one house and go to pee at the other if i wanted too (Not like i have any toilet issues mind you)..

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On a totally different note, im still deciding whether to get that "toy" i saved for the last 5 months. Initially i wanted to get it as a birthday gift to myself since im turning the big 3 owh this October, but with the nifty iPad around im just not so sure any more.

Okey enough rambling for now.. time to drop by at the parents again.

Hope your Eid was happening!

Say something nice

2011-08-23T09:24:00.002+08:00

I think this blog needs a theme. Currently its just a mish mash of anecdotes, melancholic stories and the odd fiction.

I thought this blog could be about my running.. but i dont think im running enough (except running away from things) these days.

Maybe i could just write about Yoga.. but erm.. I dont think we need another one of *ahem* those girls.

Then i thought about love, regrets, romance could be a theme too but i dont have enough sappy stories for that.

I would really love to write about my travels which i do enough.. but normally it takes too much effort to write every single detail and post pictures that most often than not by the time i feel like writing about it... the stories have gone stale.

but i do miss writing here.. so today im just sharing this article i found in Zite (an app i highly recommend!)..

and to tell you how excited I am about September ( too bad Fazli tak buat lagu Bila September kan? and Awie pulak tragedy october )

Two milestones reached..one more line crossed out from my life's checklist. Awesome.

Full article and video here

For our latest mission we constructed a custom wooden lectern with a megaphone holster and an attached sign that read, “Say Something Nice.” The lectern was placed in public spaces around New York and then left alone. We wanted to see what would happen if New Yorkers were given the opportunity to amplify their voices to “say something nice.”

Say Something Nice was produced by Improv Everywhere as part of the Guggenheim Museum exhibition stillspotting nyc. This is our second collaboration in the series, the first being The Mute Button.

Enjoy the video first and then go behind the scenes with our report below.

Lectern designed by: Jason Eppink and Alex Young
Lectern fabricated by: Alex Young
Shot by: Matt Adams, Jason Eppink, Keith Haskel, Charlie Todd
Photography: Ari Scott (Flickr Set) [Photo credit for all photos on this page]
Production Assistants: Andrew Flynn Soltys, Nicoletta Crisponi
Lectern mover guys: Jason Eppink, Keith Haskel

Agent Alex Young building the lectern

Improv Everywhere is most well known for our missions involving hundreds or even thousands of people. I was excited about this mission, because apart from the two guys who moved the lectern into place, there were zero actors. The stars of this mission would be random members of the public who chose to say yes to our simple request.

Agents Jason Eppink and Keith Haskel played the “movers.” Wearing orange vests to give them an air of legitimacy, they placed the lectern at the southern tip of Union Square and then vanished.

The lectern was in a very high-traffic area, and people immediately started to take notice, stopping to read the sign.

The megaphone was attached by a cable, allowing people to take it out of its holster but not allowing them to walk away with it. Within a few minutes people starting using the megaphone. There is always a crowd of people at this part of Union Square, so there was a built-in audience of people sitting on the steps.

“I love my friend here in the red shirt!”

The reactions to the lectern varied. Some folks ignored it. Some stopped, but decided to take a picture rather than following the instruction. Of the people who chose to speak, there were many recurring themes with “I love you,” “I love New York,” and “Have a great day” being the most common responses.

The guy in the photo above was surpisingly the only one all day to make the joke of just saying “something nice” into the megaphone.

The megaphone was about five-feet tall. We probably should have included a step, as some of the younger people who encountered it couldn’t quite reach.

These ladies decided to say something nice via song.

Not everyone followed directions. The guy above called out his friend (standing embarrassed next to him) for backing out on moving into his apartment. One woman used the megaphone as a way to promote an event she was working on. Someone else thought the megaphone was a good opportunity to give a lengthy monologue about Christianity. So while a few were opportunistic, we were pleased that the vast majority of the people who encountered the lectern got the spirit of what we were going for.

After about a half hour, the moving guys in the orange vests appeared again and transported the lectern to a few other places in the area. We stopped at the north end of Union Square and then finished up in the public plaza across the street from the Flatiron building (and just a stone’s throw from The Tourist Lane!)

It was fun seeing such a wide range of people using the megaphone, young and old.

“To infinity and beyond!”

These guys stopped to play a little song before saying something nice.

Crew photo

It was exciting to stage a mission that we had so little control over. Unlike our more performance-based projects, the results of this one were entirely in the hands of random people who happened upon the lectern. It was tons of fun setting it up and watching the results.

one step forward or one step back?

2011-07-25T12:32:00.004+08:00

I am a fan

2011-07-20T16:49:00.002+08:00

Ku susuri malam ini

Yang tidak berbintang
Sunyi sepi

Juga rembulan

Dah menghilang

Dalam kelam ku sendiri

Ku mencari hembus bayu
Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu
Kini membisu dalam sayu
Tidak ku temu suaramu

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi

Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi
Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku

Di saat ku perlukanmu

Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu
Setelah cinta perg

Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi
Diiringi

Kisah janji

Dimungkiri

Dimungkiri

Sia-sia ku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu

Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku

Retak hatiku

Luka jiwaku

Dihiris pilu

Sia-sia ku

Mencintaimu
Setia padamu

Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Beribu sesalanku..

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I am a supporter of the local "arts". I may not be the BIGGEST supporter but i do watch Malaysian movies/dramas. Layan jugak la cerekarama TV3 tu (bila kene paksa or takde channel lain nak tgk kat kampung kan...)

I think Nur Kasih is addictive.

Ye saya rasa Seth Tan atau En. Aron Aziz kite (atau mungkin dia kepunyaan Singapura) sangat kacak. kacak sangat. Tapi come on la kawan kawan.. he is only acting. Mana kau nak cari lelaki comel macam tu yg baik, sensitive dan almost perfect kan? jadi jangan lah tertipu and kau pressure pulak y'alls punya partner utk jadi macam tu. Memilih tu berpada pada. Kau bukan mailakat.. takkan nak cari pasangan yg macam mailakat kan? (This Public Service Announcement brought to you by Akak Gossip. Because WE CARE! :-P)

Adiputra pulak makes an awesome gruesome villain. (and good looking at the same time)

Tizz Zakiah (aku tau lah macam mana dia real life kan.. and i dont care how she dresses or who she fucks etc but her acting begitu berkesan dalam Nur Kasih.. ( sampai mak nangis okey tengok NK the Movie!)

Remi Ishak... ahem... enough said

And No i didnt "layan" Nora Elena. Not because it was a bad drama but i never really had the time.

Raja Lawak.. Jozan.. Sepah..makes pretty decent humour. Although u might have to follow their old stuff to actually find their sketches funny. Tapi mak paling tak tahan sketch "Manisnya Kurma Ini".. again... u have to follow the show ( or at least local religious shows) to understand it.

The song above, i "accidentally" discovered when i was home for my brother's wedding and they were watching Muzik -Muzik.. serious aku tak tau rancangan muzik muzik masih lagi releven rupanya!

Since i love Cinta di Akhir Garisan.. i think the song above is on par to it if not better.

Apa apa pon... Jelleludin hessennnn tatap menjadi pooojaan ku..

Someday, I’ll be living in a big old city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean

2011-07-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

I'm a fan of Amy Chua, the author of Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother. Both MHM and i can sort of relate to her children and we both agree we both had a bit of a tiger mother in our own mommys. I was made to do 50 maths questions a day and MHM was not allowed to watch TV weeknights other than the news between 8pm to 8.30pm. After 8.30 it was either homework,study or read story books.

I may not agree with all of her methods but i think it is a common trait among Asian parents to have high expectations of their children. I think Asian parents are also more strict with their children. At least Asian parents 20 years ago, i am not so sure about those today because i think we are more influenced by the western way of thinking these days.

Although what i do agree is that the "dictatorship" and "practice practice practice" methods have been proven to produce amazing results.
If you read Chua's book you would know that her children have accomplished a lot during their childhood and continue to do very well in their own individual activities be it tennis or studies.

Okey this post is not about parenting nor is it to promote her book... heh.. but
I follow the tiger mother and her daugther Sophia on twitter and with her permission I would like to quote an excerpt from her senior year valedictorian speech, just because i liked the part about reinventing yourself yet remaining truely you.

Just be yourself” – I know these are supposed to be words of freedom, and of course they are, but it seems to me they can also be constricting: when you change, people get scared. It takes bravery to step out of your comfort zone, and people will always have something to say about it. You make new friends, suddenly you’re a social climber. You wear a new outfit to school, and suddenly, oh you’re trying so hard. NO. Okay, maybe the denim jumpsuit was a bad idea. But don’t listen. You have absolutely no obligation to be who you are at 18 for the rest of your life. It’s not wrong to change.

“Be yourself” means “be whoever you want to be.” Not “be who your friends think you are.” Not “be the same person you were last year.” If you’ve always known what you want to be, more power to you. But it’s equally great if you wake up tomorrow morning thinking, “I’m gonna take a gap year to make a documentary in Cambodia.” “I know I signed up to do Teach For America this fall, but – I wanna start a hedge fund.” Dare to be who you’re not. The world has no right to tell you who you are, so don’t let anyone’s judgment or expectations hold you back........

.............There’s a quote I love from Lolita – and this is probably the first time a valedictorian thought it was a good idea to quote a child-molesting psychopath – that reads as follows:
“it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good.”

A rebel has courage. A rebel undertakes personal risk for something they believe in. Anyone can say, “forget this,” cut class, smoke weed. You know why? Because it’s easy. It doesn’t make you a rebel. You’re a failing cog in the machine, but you’re still a cog in the machine.

If you don’t like the system, get out of the system. Because a lot of the time, the system is wrong. I don’t need to describe societal injustice; you know it’s out there. There is so much to fix. So often, the system is broken. Another mistake is to think that we have somehow maxed out, or “arrived.” With iPads, 3D-Printers, 4G networks, it may feel as though things can’t get any better, as though we’ve already made every possible breakthrough. But let me tell you, people felt that same way when fire first came out, and then stairs, and car-phones. There is ALWAYS something unfathomable around the corner. Instead of being shocked by the next earth-shattering discovery, make that discovery. Be the one salmon that swims downstream. Rock other people’s worlds.

If you want to be a rebel, don’t just break the rules: make the rules.

My attempt at fiction

2011-06-20T11:37:00.006+08:00

Closure is a funny thing.Its funny because there are a thousand and one ways of obtaining it. It could be from the smallest thing like losing a t-shirt he gave you, to hearing him move in with your best friend.

I knew it took him awhile to get that from me. I knew from seeing how he still called me in the middle of the night, or randomly during the day. Wanting to know how i was and was that me he saw driving the red mini.

He could rot in hell for all i care, for if it was up to me he would never.ever.get.closure. That sorry bastard. Cheating on me while i was at my lowest.

Telling me he loved me but holding hands with that sweet little thang from Texas.

I asked him how he did it? How he managed having this relationship alongside another. How many times he did it with her and when did he took the time to see me? Did the other girl know she was the other women and did she care?

He told me, he was careless. He told me he saw me during the week and the sweet little thang on weekends. He told me he genuinely cared for me. He told me he tried telling me before. That he never lied. That he was only hiding the truth.

What a fucker. That was his argument? that was his excuse? and when i started dating Othello he still had the guts to accuse me of being unfaithful? That he said i was doing the same thing that he did to me?

Sod off i said. You were not worth the trouble anyway.

I'll see you again, on this side or the other

2011-06-11T00:31:00.004+08:00

To be able to do a certain pose in yoga, you dont only need physical strength but you also need inner belief. The inner belief that you can do that pose. It took me 2 years to be able to do the Parsva Bakasana (Side Crow Yoga Pose) and over a bit more to be able to do an assisted head-stand against the wall.

Believe me, that is not impressive at all as i still needed someone's help to actually get my feet up aaaaand it was against a wall. I doubt i would be able to do a proper free-standing head stand in the next 5 years but whats amazing is, not so much being able to do the pose but the fact that I actually had the guts to do it without feeling like I was going to fall over.

Every couple of weeks, randomly the instructor would make us practice these head-stands or a series of steps leading to the head stand. And in most of the classes i would be the one just looking from the sidelines. The most i would try is an extended version of the downward dog whereby u slowly walk your feet closer and closer to your hands before you start lifting your legs up. (Which i NEVER manage to do) I did once get my feet up with the help of the instructor but i felt so giddy that i quickly lost balance.

I think life is also like doing yoga, you have a goal ( a pose ) that you want to do and you walk your way through a series of steps to achieve your goal. Initially you will feel fear, uncertainty and you sometimes even stop trying because it is just too scary and you're afraid you would hurt yourself. Like doing yoga, you need lots and lots and practice to get better faster, which in life you need lots of patience and keep on believing in this dream of yours.

Maybe you wont get to do that pose in the next few classes, maybe you need a couple hundred more before you even have the courage to try it out properly but eventually, when the time is right you WILL want to try that move. You would feel a little wobbly, and you will need assistance, and you might not even stay in that position for long BUT when you know how it feels, when u start to realise which muscle to contract,how to hold your posture,which body part to hold on to.. you will finally know that YOU CAN DO IT.. and you will feel like you're on top of the world.

I know in life, after trying so many times, after going through each step methodically, and still not getting the results that we expect, we tend to be discouraged. We will feel like giving up and everything just starts to get fuzzy. And in times like these, everyone and I know myself too needs reminding that sometimes it takes 2 years to be able to do a simple pose. Maybe you didnt get what you want this way, then maybe you need to try a different approach, a different activity..just to look at it in a new angle.

Whats important to remember i think, is at the end of the day, when the time comes, you will know that you are ready to make that move, you will start to feel that you are getting closer to your goal, and when that moment comes you will know that you're doing the right thing.. and you will know that you are finally there.

Rojak buah

2011-06-01T14:37:00.001+08:00

Working in an industry dominated by men, as i mentioned before being surrounded by men 90% of the time I have come to realised that there are various ways to work/deal with/better communicate with the human male.

You can be the pretty, sweet talking, hapless girl which by men would offer to help you do EVERYTHING.
Be the bitch with the sarcastic (sadistic) tone that men (subordinates/bosses/vendors etc) fear.
Be the nice girl, who does it all that sometimes gets bullied into doing someone elses job.
Be the pretty girl that everybody swoons but with a sharp tongue that u can give them a lashing while laughing jokingly.
Be the sweet girl who gets along with men but would sometimes trash those who try to take advantage of her (by asking her to do stuff! not taking advantage in that sexual way u pervs! although there have been cases like that in my company but is not the story im trying to tell here) but still gets things done by herself and by getting the help of the men around her.

I would like to belive that i have my ways of getting things done with the various men i work with , by being a bit of everything from type 1-5. But what i have observed and experienced myself is that for each category of men, (maybe i'll talk about this some other day) there are different ways to deal with them. Sometimes you have to be the hapless sexy siren who needs a hand in lifting the big boxes. Sometimes it's the im your girl-next-door and "oh youre sooo clever for knowing how to configure my phone!". Once in a while you have to be Hitler "you'd better get those equipment fixed before i kill you and feed your bones to the dogs!". But most of the time you can get away with just being one of the guys, engaging normal conversation with them, kid them out sometimes when they make mistakes and never pretend to be stronger than you are not.It's not all bad being having them around all the time, it just needs a little getting used to.
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I'm back!
You know what they say.. when God closes a door.. He opens a window.

The wheels on the bus go round and round

2011-05-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

Failure is part and parcel of learning and I'm still coping with the concept.

As arrogant as this may sound i am not so familiar with it. I'm used to working hard and
achieving my targets. But sometimes you have to accept that not everything is within our control.

I know what im facing is nothing compared to what other people are going through , death in the family, losing jobs, not having enough food to eat, earthquakes, divorce etc

but in my tiny little world it can cause ripples.

I know what doesnt kill you makes me stronger, but a few recent events is making me feel lost and dejected, so let me dwell in self-pity for awhile.

Regular programme will continue after these messages....

Things i think about while i sit as secretary in competency interview committee

2011-05-11T16:09:00.000+08:00

I'm a GIRL!

I'm a nerd!

I'm a fish!

I'm a fan!

Upin dan Ipin

2011-05-08T19:27:00.000+08:00

My niece reminds me of this dancing baby.

When i'm standing on the yellow line

2011-05-05T09:49:00.001+08:00

2 weeks ago i was supposed to have a nice 4 day vacation sipping liquid oxygen and baking myself in the sun. Last week, i cancelled a 3 day driving/cycling/eating trip for said 4-day vacation. Within a span of a month i have missed out on two jalan jalan expeditions for reasons i shall not mention here.

And after all said and done, i'm left here frustrated like having an erection in the middle of the day and seeing nothing to fuck.
God knows how much i love travelling and need a decent holiday!

I miss the heavy beat of my heart seeing the blue darkness underneath me as i swim above a 600m deep underwater ravine.
I miss the dirt on my face as i walk along busy sidewalks filled with traffic and honking cars.
I miss complaining about the slightly dingy hotels and the lack of water.
I miss heat thats so hot, a glass of Coke feels like drinking a cup of heaven.
I miss walking till my legs hurt that at night i just collapse into bed and fall into slumber in a blink of an eye.
I miss cold thats so numbing, your hands freeze and your lips go dry.

I'm in pieces
It seems like peace is
The only thing I never know
How do you get up from an all time low

I can't even find a place to start
How do I choose between my head and heart?

till it ceases I never know

How do you get up from an all time low

Kenapa semua gambar saya penyet?!

2011-04-21T09:29:00.001+08:00

Edited 21 April 2011 :

I've had enough of experimenting for now. This shall suffice for the meantime.

Sometimes its good to go back to basics.

When u feel that everything starts to dissapoint you,its time to start fresh.

Get a clean slate.. the works.

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excuse the *ahem* messy blog.

I'm still playing around with the CSS. Dont be surprised if this changes.. AGAIN!

Word

2011-04-15T10:35:00.002+08:00

In an attempt to make work (seem) more fun i gave interesting names to new folders I created.

The new tender im working is filed under Tinda Biruuuu ( I know..so original kan? ...Shutupyourface!)
And the sub folder for that is called New Age Space Machine.
It makes dull everyday job like working in a secret science lab!

My only fear would be having trouble locating the files in the future.. hee..

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Btw i miss being engrossed in reading a good book.
I just finished one yesterday and i cant wait to get my nose in another one!

Recent readings include Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls (dark and depressing. If you have or want kids, maybe you should'nt read it) and Stone's into Schools by Greg Mortenson (Ya Allah, one of the best books i have read so far. Very inspiring and humbling. A must read!).
Currently im reading The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin and its taking forever! so i think im going to find another book to read in between finishing it :-)

I hate it when this happens

2011-04-15T10:05:00.001+08:00

soon

2011-04-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

Like a BOSS

2011-04-12T09:42:00.004+08:00

As we get older our bodies change so much.
Like an old car everything needs extra maintenance.
I dont mind getting old, but it does get a little tiring when u start to realize that u need to take better care of
everything!

But out of all the wrinkles, aches and pains that comes with age, i would take it graciously as long as i dont lose myself and turn into one of the geezers over here who cant seem to get enough of listening to himself talk.

Its like a trend! a cult! you age, you get into a certain position/rank and all of a sudden you cant stop talking.

Its like babble babble babble babble babble babble babble babble babble

yadda yadda yadda yadda yadda yadda.

cakap cakap cakap cakap cakap cakap cakap..

Oh my God! Take a breath once in a while.
and listen to what you're saying.
Most of the time you are not making any sense!

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and btw i just realized my blog is still ugly as ass!

Need to change this layout soon.

Its freakin annoying!

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and oh yeah.. google today's title.

You will be pleasantly/annoyingly (depends on your sense of humor) surprised.

Owh Emm Gee

2011-03-24T16:44:00.003+08:00

My angry birds is back! Just when i was about to repair ~~replace~~ it.. it came back alive!

Btw, this aptly explains my ~~sad~~ obsession!

Apple Crisp My Crumbling Heart

2011-03-21T14:45:00.019+08:00

When my smartphone was busted last Saturday, I felt so lost.
Its like losing an extension of you. I know.. over sangat kan.. but it did feel like losing a limb.

As pathetic as this may sound, but among the things i missed the most was Angry Birds! So much so that i even installed the PC version of it on MHM's laptop :-P

So in honor of that Apple and to stop myself from feeling depressed, I made Apple Crisp Chenta Hati Saya (nama Melayu ho kay). An apple crisp is somewhat similar to a crumble except its topping is slightly different. The difference and recipe's for both can be found here.

Tuan tuan dan puan puan..

Bahan bahan yang di perlukan
Apples (Du uh?)
Nutmeg and Cinnamon powder
Flour
Butter
Dried Oats
Brown Sugar

You start by peeling and cutting up the apples into bite size pieces.

I tweaked the recipe a bit by mixing the cut up apples with a table spoon of brown sugar and a bit of cinnamon instead of just leaving it bare.

Then you mix all the dry ingredients with butter and scatter it ~~all over the table~~ on the apples until it covers up the whole casserole dish.

Finally bake until golden brown. Or in my case, until hitam.

Note to self : When the recipe says to pre-heat the oven at 375°F, it doesnt mean that u cook it at that temperature too. Cooking temperature could be lower.

Eventhough it came out slightly burnt, but luckily rasanya masih sedap.

Sekian saja tuan - tuan dan puan - puan sekalian.
Selamat mencuba!

Auto-fix

2011-03-14T15:15:00.001+08:00

Saya dan kucing comot yang comel

2011-03-14T14:17:00.005+08:00

You would think that being in an environment that doesn't promote lateral thinking nor requires u to use high level of English would zap you of your intelligence
as your braincells sit dormant and rust away

But ladies and gentleman..
Alhamdulillah ..

Saya MASIH bijak ..(rupanya)..

Thank God

:-)

(Gambar sekadar hiasan :-P)

Sepatu tinggi di Milan

2011-03-11T10:00:00.006+08:00

I may hate the odd akak/makcik blogging about her latest prada/coach/gucci handbag but i dont hate fashion.

The truth is, i love it!

and I may not dress fashionably (i think my sister is better at that.. i know you're reading this..terus kembang hidung bangga kan? :-P) but at least i dress sensibly.

I read magazines and i love fashion blogs.
The Sartorialist being one of my favorites tapi bile tengok sekali, rasa nak tengok berhari hari.. as in i want to look at all the pages..
sangat melekakan..

The latest blog i found is Bryanboy (featured in our daily free newspaper) who apparently is famous in the fashion industry!
He started from being an unknown blogger who wrote about his travels and the latest trends to someone who hangs out with big names in the industry and getting invited to all the exclusive fashion shows.

I think he is such an inspiration!

and I secretly wish i had the guts (and MONEY!) to wear all those weird looking outfits.

I know my Kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes

2011-03-08T09:07:00.004+08:00

Every time i click on your link, i hold my breath just for a second, anticipating a new entry that would blow my mind (again).

And as your page loads up ever so slowly, it feels like time stands still just for that mere second.

And when the pages finally appear, and i realize that there are no new updates.. my heart sinks just a little from the disappointment.

But tomorrow is another day and i will again click on that familiar link and the ritual repeats all over again as i leave with hope and longing.

Tentang saya

2011-03-07T11:00:00.004+08:00

I've always wanted to do an About Page but never really found out how.. (yes i can be a doink too.) and then.. i was surfing the Dr's page and saw the Self Imposed Guardian Q&A page and i think its GENIUS!

so here you go.. my own version.. just because I'm narcisstic like that

( and the picture above? because thats my profile picture in Gchat and I love cats )

When were you happiest?

When i was 22 and the world was my oyster.

What is your greatest fear?

To get lost. I am just so bad with directions. hee.

What is your earliest memory?

of what? mmm my favourite teddy bear blowing off in the wind when i was 5

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

I can be so unforgiving.

What is the trait you most deplore in others?
People who lie

Aside from a property, what’s the most expensive thing you’ve ever bought?

Tickets to London AND New York. Although the best $$$$ i have ever spent!

What is your most treasured possession?

My iPhone

What would your super power be?

to laugh at the face of adversity ( i know its not the normal kind of super power to have but hey.. its my super power.. suka hatila kan? :)

What makes you depressed?

My current job and how demeaning it can make me feel sometimes

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

My big nose.

Who would play you in the film of your life?

Anne Hathaway

What is your guiltiest pleasure?

Cekodok pisang eaten with nasi goreng

What do you owe your parents?

Money?

What is the worst job you’ve ever done?

Im still doing it :-P I pray to God that there is something out there that's better and gives me more satisfaction. This cant be IT. This cant be all that one can expect out of a job. I REALLY REALLY HOPE SO!

What has been your biggest disappointment?
the ending to a movie..

Who would you invite to your dream dinner party?

Curtis Stone. And he would cook for me!

What is the worst thing anyone’s ever said to you?

you're too skinny

To whom would you most like to say sorry, and why?

To my self 5 years ago, I'm sorry i didn't learn to enjoy the things around me then. I am so afraid that me in the next 5 years would have to say the same thing to the me now.

What does love feel like?

Like a blinding pain in the depth of your heart.

Which living person do you most despise, and why?

Makcik makcik yang duk tayang kasut mahal handbag mahal. And cerita pasal semua bende baru yang dia beli.

People, there is SO.MUCH.MORE.TO.LIFE then the latest Burberry clutch.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

Sheeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttt...

If you could edit your past, what would you change?

Refer to the 4th previous question

When did you last cry, and why?

A couple of months ago. Because my heart hurt so much, and it wouldn't go away even after a few days.

How do you relax?

Tengok TV

What is the closest you’ve ever come to death?

At 14. When my appendix burst.

What single thing would improve the quality of your life?

Wang besar .. wang besar!

What keeps you awake at night?

Hantu mak limah balik kampung.

What song would you like played at your funeral?

apa pasang lagu kat funeral ni.. pasang ayat Al-Quran la.. sheesh. :-P

What is the most important lesson life has taught you?

To not be affected by negative vibes around me. If you want to be an asshole, so be it. I don't wanna know.

Where would you most like to be right now?

Anywhere but here

Side crows pose

2011-03-04T10:33:00.005+08:00

I took up yoga 2 years ago to supplement my running activities. You know how they say yoga makes you exercise muscles that you never knew you had before? Believe me, I know what that means.

The first time I tried a class was during the Yogazone days when one of my aunties was a member. I've heard a lot of things about yoga those days, one of them was a story of a girlfriend who loss a lot of weight from taking classes for a whole year.

So I joined one of the trial classes with my aunt and to tell you the truth, I did not enjoy it at all. It was boring and I didnt even sweat that much.

Fast forward a few years later when I was training for my first (and only.. for now) half marathon, I was looking for something to do on rest days. The gym I joined offered free yoga classes so i said to myself.. "what the heck, lets give this another go..". It was a monday class and oh my God i sweated like a pig. And my whole body ached for a week!

but....

I did feel a little different during my runs. So since then, i started doing yoga every monday. There were good days and there were bad days. There were days where the poses made me ache and there were ones that made me feel down ,feeling sad that i wasnt as limber as the other students. But little by little i felt my body change, and improve.

Okey.. so the whole point of me rambling about is only this.. After 2 years of trying and failing (its not like i do it in every class but sporadically.. whenever the teacher instructs us) i finally managed to do this..

and... OMG... the feeling is ....indescribable..

bangga gile mak, nyah!
;-)

Regrets and mistakes, their memories made

2011-02-22T12:46:00.001+08:00

Maybe God made it rain so that you would learn to appreciate the sun

2011-02-17T09:05:00.003+08:00

I think its time to change the look of this blog. But i don't have a web developer on this ancient desktop and the company blocks any chance of me downloading one off the net.

Its been such a long time since i did "programming" (and im using the word loosely).
The last time i fooled around with CSS was in 2002. Im pretty sure there's new stuff out there, no?

I think its time to change a lot of things.
But you have to start somewhere right?

Although i hope things don't evolve around me too quickly.
Before i'm ready.

Aku mungkin tidak bisa ke bulan, tapi paling kurang ke matahari?

2011-02-08T14:38:00.003+08:00

If Puteh went to the office

2011-01-21T08:21:00.002+08:00

Pink is the new black

2011-01-12T08:18:00.005+08:00

I never knew that my turquoise KS handbag that i bought last year was actually the in colour for 2010. Does that mean my wardrobe and accessories needs a revamp? :-p

Im a participant of istockphoto.com but i havent submitted any new photos since 2007, but believe it or not i've actually generated 19 USD from my pictures. I know it isnt much but i never expected my photos to generate any money so im still very pleased. istockphoto is very strict in their selection of images (i've never submitted videos or illustrations yet) and when i was sort of an active participant before, ive only managed to get through 4 photos out of maybe 10 that i've sent them.

Maybe i should start taking more photos again.
Maybe 2011 should be my year of inspiration!

FML

2011-01-03T10:18:00.006+08:00

One of my biggest resolutions this year is

to farking BACKUP all of my data

Which includes burning all my pictures from the laptop and portable hard drive into DVD's and maybe even print out the few important ones.

Updating my Google contacts so that i can sync it with any telephone device that i will ever own.

Backing up my photos/data on iPhone to laptop and thus DVD.

Keeping a copy of any work document i am working on in a portable hard drive or server so that if anything happened to the laptop i wouldn't need to redo everything again.

Maybe start using Dropbox for portability of data.

And if anyone dares to comeback to me and say "And you haven't been doing that already?"
Im gonna smack you silly!

2010 has seen me losing data one too many times and I cant take it anymore. So this year that would be one of my main resolutions and.. that other thing ive been meaning to do in 2011. But lets not jinx it shall we? ;-)

Take a bite of my heart tonight

2010-12-27T07:16:00.009+08:00

Epiphany s can be a result of significant events in your life, or a sudden revelation from mundane day to day things like an apple falling from a tree. But these days im pretty sure more than most of u would want to admit, epiphanys/ inspiration come after watching a tv series or a movie.

I watched Greys Anatomy season 6 last night, after not watching it for a whole year.. and man.. does that story have a whole lot of drama and subplots that its starting to get really confusing. But last night also reminded me why i loved watching it :)

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While growing up, we often get asked when are u getting a boyfriend? a girlfriend? a steady? Once you're in love, people ask u when are u tying the knot? When u're settled down and living together u are asked when are u getting a baby? Once u have one baby they ask you when u're having the second one. If you have a girl then they ask u when you are having a boy?
Its never ending! No wonder we are called a human race! Everyone is just rushing to get to somewhere.

So this year instead, I decided to take things slow and not conform to everyone's expectations.

This year I've had friends who suffered the biggest break ups of their lives while others got married. Some conceived their first child and some gave birth to their first daughters, some bought their first house and some changed jobs.

This year i went for the best trip of my life and changed postcodes to my dream neighborhood. Although this year was also the first time i went through my first break - in, at said neighborhood realising the lost of data can be worse than the lost of tangible items.

I am pretty excited for 2011 as i have really big dreams for that year and I really hope it will come true.

So lets raise our Milo mugs to 2010 for being the year of taking a break and to 2011 the year of jumping over life biggest hurdles.

To my friends

who are settling down next year, may u have glorious days ahead.
To those who are expecting newborns, good luck for that enormous change in life.
To those who changed jobs, may this one gives u that sense of purpose u have been waiting for so long
and to those who are stil looking for love, enjoy your freedom and loose yourselves in
your passion.
Keep in mind that the presence of another human being should never determine your sole happiness but should only
enhance it.

To the core

2010-12-14T18:52:00.005+08:00

In the past I've always felt like i was running away from
something
And of course when I finally did manage to get free
it was totally worth it

but my only regret is that i wish i had learnt to exist in the
present
appreciating the beauty in front of me and not always looking
away

because i think if i did
im pretty sure i would have been happier

then..

not now

where im happiest.

Muka buku

2010-12-06T16:05:00.004+08:00

Im a little pissed that the movie Social Network only mentioned Oxford, Cambridge and London School of Economics. Not even a sliver of Imperial College London.
Well it is only the 7th top university in the universe! (Assuming Mars has not yet developed highly intelligent life form)

:-)

cause baby you're a firework

2010-11-15T15:49:00.005+08:00

My cat is naughty and EVIL. He woke us up at 5 farking 15 this morning when we just came back from a tiring race the night before. I think he must have been feeling rather needy since we left him alone at home for 2 days. I know u miss us but baby.. 5 in the morning?!

Still.. we love him all the same..

Dont worry. Im not turning into one of those cat obsessed ladies (i hope!)

Downward dog

2010-11-15T11:23:00.001+08:00

Booyah

2010-11-11T12:13:00.005+08:00

its one of those days where im battling boredom, not because the lack of things to do
but the lack of life here.

I took this last month in KB, where God granted my girl her wish of getting married on 10.10.10. "Ten Ten Ten!" words that never left her lips when people were pestering her about marriage when she was still single yet optimistic, the same words she said when her love swept her of her feet.

You know the concept of "The Secret" that was popular 2 years ago? I believe in it.
I also believe in Karma. I believe God rewards those who have good intentions (and i secretly hopes He punishes those with bad ones. give them a taste of their own medicine.you know.. that Karma's a bitch! concept. I secretly do.)

The white one

2010-10-16T18:58:00.002+08:00

This is me trying to get a cute picture of my hyperactive cat. Unlike my first cat which i found by the highway, this one we got thought http://petfinder.my/.
A great place to find cats, dogs and other animals. And its free too!
So I present to u my naughty little boy, my boo.. Puteh.. not only because the name is ironic but because his legs makes him look like he's wearing cute white socks on all his paws.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.

2010-09-29T22:23:00.002+08:00

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

Office in a box

2010-09-22T17:05:00.005+08:00

In 2002 i moved into my first proper apartment, shared with 3 other friends in London. And since then i started learning the art of organising house bills,daily chores, weekly grocery shopping etc. Luckily my bestie L is an expert in this field so we just followed along and keep tracked of everything together.
When i moved back to Malaysia the only bills i had to keep track was my phone bill and the rest was all lumped sum under one payment which my aunty took care off.

When I got married, i took up the responsibility of keeping track our monthly bills and expenditure i.e utilities and monthly grocery shopping. Sometimes it can be a little overwhelming looking at the numbers and having to make sure that everything is paid at the right time but thankfully for smart iphone apps like Money Smart and internet banking, its easy peasy lemon squeasy.

Anyway i got this from Gail's blog and i think its a great idea. I already have a mini version of the office in a a box at home :)

Disorderly Conduct

Posted by John Draper | Filed under Good ideas, Money Management

One of the biggest issues for people who are having financial difficulties is the fact that everything about their money is disorganized. They pay bills late, don’t pay them at all, or pay the same bill twice. Yup, I’ve seen it with m’own eyes, people. They transfer money back and forth between numerous accounts, often incurring overdraft fees because they miss by minutes. They take $100 out of the bank and 20 minutes later they’re back for another $20. Whazzup with that?

Most of us are disorganized in some way. I can never seem to find my keys. No matter how many “spots” I have in my purse, in my fanny pack, on the hook, I seem to spend more time than I should looking for my keys. Some people can’t keep their shelves organized. Other people have a junk drawer where they dump stuff until they “have the time” to get it put away. I’ve seen the Junk Drawer principal even applied to a whole room in a house. Sheesh!

Disorganization is one of life’s great stressors. Visual clutter makes us feel uncomfortable. Mental clutter keeps us awake at night. Taking the time to get your stuff organized, including your finances, will pay in time saved, reduced stress and a clearer path to being financially balanced.

People want to be organized and they’re constantly looking for an easy way to put things in order and keep them that way. When I did my speaking engagements last year, we gave away an Office in a Box at each session. People cried when they won the Office in a Box. It was relief, I think.

Build your own Office in a Box. You probably have lots of this stuff just sitting in a drawer somewhere. All you need are:

* Box of file folders (approx 30)
* Box of hanging folders + tabs (approx 25)
* Box to hang folders in
* Lables (1 box)
* Pens coloured (1 pack)
* Pencils plain (1 box)
* Eraser
* Small stapler
* Staple remover
* Scissors
* Scotch tape
* Paperclips
* IN box tray x 2
* Post-it notes
* Calculator
* Envelopes (letter sized)
* Stamps
* Accounting book — ruled

There’s no magic in getting organized. It takes time. It takes focus. And it requires that you have a process that you can follow. But it isn’t hard. Any dope can do it.

When it comes to getting organized, everything needs a place. Gather all your paperwork and create a file folder for each of your accounts, forms of credit, home, insurance, estate, and taxes. You can use a filing cabinet or a box. The folders have to be able to stand up on their own, or you can use hanging folders to keep them straight.

Welcome to 21st Century banking.? If you don’t already have it, set up telephone or internet banking. If you don’t have a “free” or almost free transaction account, you can reduce fees by setting up a buffer? If you can afford it, transfer $1,000 float to your chequing account (pretend it isn’t there) and use that to minimize your banking costs. If you’re paying more than $20 a month (that’s high) for your banking, you’re a sucker!

Save automatically.? Create an auto-debit from your chequing account to a savings account that will not be touched. Most people won’t put money into a savings account on a regular basis, opting to wait for a tax-refund or bonus before setting aside some money for the future. Establish an automatic savings deposit every month and your nestegg will accumulate faster than you think.

Create a Monthly Bill Summary. List your bills in the date order they need to be paid to prevent you from missing a bill. If you have bills that are paid automatically from your account, write an “A” beside these bills and remember to deduct them from your Spending Journal at bill payment time each month.

Set-up your in-baskets. ?Create an in-basket with two Unpaid Bills folders labeled “1-15″ and “16-31″ ? Don’t let the mail pile up. As soon as you bring in the mail, look at the due date on the bill and put it in the appropriate folder. Recycle all the marketing crap in the envelope. ?Create a second in-basket with 3 folders labeled “bank statements”, “bills paid” and “tax receipts”.

Weekly

Make a date with your money. On the 12th and 28th of each month to pay bills, set aside the time in your schedule – you’ll need about 30 minutes, depending on your bills — to pay your bills.

Always pay your bills in one place that you’ve equipped with your bill paying system, spending journal, envelopes, stamps, pens, pencils, a calculator, tape, a stapler and return address labels and recycling bin for all that marketing stuff you’re going to dump.

When you pay a bill, write the cheque or transaction number, amount paid, and the date you paid it on the bill. Put the paid bill in your “bill’s paid” file. Deduct the amount you’ve spent from your Spending Journal. If a bill has not been paid in full (tax bills are paid over several months, for example) put it back in your Bills Folder so you don’t forget it.

Monthly

Reconcile you bank statements. When you bank statements come in, put them in your in-box folder. Make a date when all your statements are in (it’ll depend on when you receive them) to:

* review your statements to make sure there are no mistakes
* reconcile your Spending Register; clearly mark the cheques that have gone through your account and highlight the ones in your Spending Register that haven’t yet cleared the bank. A cheque that is taking a long time clearing the bank can lull you into thinking you have more money than you do. Go back at least a month to make sure all previous cheques have cleared.
* talk with your partner about anything unusual

Quarterly

File. Once a quarter, file all your paperwork to keep your system current.

Talk. Have a dinner with your partner and talk about the bumps, your goals and how you’re doing.

Annually

Re-vamp your budget. Review your budget using last years cc statements and bank statements to see what you actually spent. If you spent more on a particular category, make sure you know why, or look for ways to trim.

Clean up. Go through your files at the end of each year and throw out bills and receipts no longer needed for auditing/budgeting purposes.

* Tax Returns and Backup Documentation: Whether personal or business, the general rule is seven years.
* Insurance policies: Keep everything for as long as the policy is in effect. You can dump the old policy if you get a new one with your renewal each year. Don’t rely on the insurance company to provide copies of your records since any burden of proof will fall to you.
* Warranty Documents: Review your warranty file annually and get rid of documents for defunct appliances, telephones, or anything else that’s gone the way of the recycling bin. And, of course, when the warranty expires, you can chuck the paperwork.
* Home Repair Bills & Contracts: For as long as the warranty is in place, or longer if you want to prove upgrades for insurance or home resale purposes.
* Pay Stubs: Keep your last two year’s worth.
* Bank Statements: Keep a year’s worth in an accessible place so you can re-vamp your budget from accurate figures. File everything else for five years.
* Credit Card Statements: Keep the current year’s on hand for revamping your budget.
* ATM Receipts: Dump them once you’ve reconciled your bank statement at the end of the month.
* Investment Documents: If you have stocks, bonds, or mutual funds, you are buried in prospectuses, privacy notices, address confirmations, along with your regular statements. Keep the statements. Forever.
* Utility Bills: Writing off your utility bills for tax purposes? Keep them in your tax file. Otherwise, keep one year’s worth for comparative purposes.
* Mortgage Documents: Until you die or the mortgage is paid off, whichever comes first.

BTW, people have been asking about The Budget Binder. There’s an example of how to make your own under Resources.

Syawal

2010-09-17T10:53:00.001+08:00

So my Aidilfitri was colourful, wet and phattening. How was yours?

Pecah kaca pecah gelas sudah baca harap balas

2010-09-07T08:29:00.017+08:00

So MHM and I had a baking marathon last weekend. We (when i say we it means him weighing out the ingredients and mixing it all together and me helping him shape the cookies and doing the washing up afterward.. hee) made... (get ready for this )

3 batches of chocolate chip cookies
2 batches of chocolate crinkles
1 batch of oatmeal raisin cookies
1 batch of oatmeal chocolate cookies
1 carrot cake
1 chocolate cake
~~and a partridge in a pear tree~~

Take that Martha Stewart! And now our dining table is stacked with Tupperwares of cookies and cakes.. macam nak bukak kedai.

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How was your Ramadhan so far? its the last 3 days of fasting before you start the eating frenzt. This year MHM and I only ate out 3 times and the rest was either home cooked meals at home or at friends and family's places or bought at the Param and consumed at home. Jimat mak bulan ni nyah!

Tomorrow we'll be on our way back and I am preparing myself mentally and physically for the L.O.N.G journey ahead. I am really hoping that this year wont be as bad as last year.. but sigh..its all wishfull thinking..

Anyway before i leave you with teasers of our bake off last weekend, as the normal saying goes.. Sorry for all my wrongdoings.. terngumpat.. termarah.. termakan.. tergedik (?)... and any grief that i may have caused you either accidentally or on purpose .Have a safe journey home and

Selamat Hari Raya!

Hello Clarice

2010-08-24T14:20:00.004+08:00

End of year's makes you soggy, lazy and it feels like you want to do things half heartedly. I know its still 4 months away till December but September is the financial year end for this company, so old projects are being packed up into little imaginary boxes for storage and new development is waiting for budget transfers, committee approvals and kick off meetings. Especially it being the fasting month and Raya not so far away, the more you feel like crawling into hibernation.

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On a different note, I have just realised, like a blinding light, that real friends support you in every single endeavor regardless if it doesn't go along with their own beliefs or life plans. Fake friends are the ones who chastise your decision with snarky remarks disguised in giggly jokes, only to follow in your footsteps soon after. I guess some people need need put others down in order to feel better about themselves. To exert superiority when they all know too well that they themselves are mediocre. Dont worry, you have no idea who you are. Even if i was pointing right straight attcha.

4 years in a row

2010-08-23T15:48:00.010+08:00

Every year since 2006, a small group of us have been organising these annual potluck Iftar sessions. It has seen us grow from a group of singletons and couples, to parents with one and two kids, the newly weds and so on. This year the location changed to Kelana Jaya to accommodate the ever growing group, and this year MHM and I made kari ikan penang mariiiii. These events has always been fun with food aplenty.
Thank you again to all who has made it a success. Till next year...

Rock Bottom

2010-08-16T08:19:00.002+08:00

Epal dipotong comel

2010-08-12T08:28:00.002+08:00

When things that you despise and hate overcome the things that u love and enjoy..
its time to quit and throw in the towel.

Can i not wait for next year please ......

Meh!

The long overdue post

2010-08-09T10:19:00.012+08:00

Last weekend we watched New York I Love You and it was one of the weirdest movies I've ever watched. I watched it without looking at the synopsis and without any expectations except thinking it was a typical romcom. Little did I know it was "An anthology film joining several love stories set in one of the most loved cities of the world, New York". Like a storybook with short stories in it.

Anyhow it reminded me that i still have an entry long overdue. So here's the list of things we did in New York and Boston compiled by MHM and elaborated here by me. I think it would be a pretty good guide on things to do or experience if you're ever in the area.

In random order :-

Breakfast in a diner (this was my first exposure to the portions of American meals. Their breakfast would be the size of my typical lunch in Malaysia! and it was a big mistake because it all totaled up to 30USD for breakfast! (including tips)??!
New york cream cheese bagel (our typical and MHM's favourite breakfast while we were on the move)
Brooklyn Bridge ( SATC. Miranda and Steve. Will you meet me halfway?)
Empire State Building and Ellis Island (tempat wajib. Nuff said)
Subway train ( slightly better than the tube in London. ada aircond . ngeee)
30 rock (refer to point 30)
Magnolia cupcakes (this bakery was featured/mentioned in Sex and the City and Devil Wears Prada .The 2 cuppies we chose were so so. Cream tebal)
Wicked on Broadway ( Make sure you pre-purchase your tickets before you go there. If you think the online prices are expensive, try buying them on the spot! if you're ever so lucky.. they're sold out most of the time)
The famous Halal Cart on 53rd and 6th. ( tak tipu. line dia panjang)
~~Making out on top of~~ Empire state building during sunset.
Ride a greyhound bus (ada wifi wa cakap luuu...)
Bryant park
4th of july fireworks (we were lucky to be there on that date. U can see it from anywhere along Hudson river)
Wall Street and financial district (our friend's apartment was on Wall Street itself)
World trade centre
Saks 5th avenue (Hof course tidak mampu shopping di sini.. but all the famous movies mention this shopping mall.. jadi wajib visit okeyy!)
Victorias secret (Dont ask.)
Woodbury Common Outlet Shopping ( Tickets are 47USD. Lagi mahal dari tickets to Boston tu! but oh so very worth it. You can get the bus at Port Authority,42nd Street & Eighth Avenue. For everything else there's always mustercard.)
Central park ( I really wish we had the time to do a short run here)
Applebees (American cuisine)
Upper east and west side (China Town, Little Italy.. etc)
Museum mile
Chipotle taco and burrito (vegetarian option. Fulfilling and quite tasty)
Popover cafe (oh so heavenly. Its located on Amsterdam Ave & 86th Street in NYC. Order its eggs benedict. its like Owh My God!)
Grand central station.
Being scolded on the street for not looking (You know how they drive on the right and the driver's on the left.. etc?)
Lookout for the stupid signs on milk cartons (Allergen alert : Contains milk)
Ali Baba- turkish food ( Between 3rd Ave & Tunnel Exit St. A quite fancy restaurant serving delicious turkish food. If you're going in a big group, make sure u make reservations. Portions are big as usual, so between the two of us we just ordered a squid salad and mixed grill. Which we even had leftovers)
Pinkberry (something like Tuttyfrutty in Malaysia. A must try! )
NBC Tour (NBC Studios tour at Rockefeller Centre. I was secretly hoping Liz Lemon was there. Or Kenny the page)
Goodburger (Their Portebello Mushroom Sandwich was awesome! A huge mushroom cap as the meat in the middle)

BOSTON

MIT - my sister in law graduated from here. Much respect!
Harvard - (like if you're in the UK u visit Oxford and Cambridge, in Boston you visit here. Tempat orang orang genious/kaya?)
Charles river
Freedom trail tour. (Tour done by the ex-Harvard students. They were very entertaining. My only complaint would be the weather was too hot!!)
Fenuil Hall & Quincy Market (refer to point 6)
Clam chowder and lobster pie
The duck tour ( The tickets are slightly pricey but it was a very interesting experience)
Ride the T (just like the metro)
Boston common and public gardens
Cheers bar (Hang out and have a drink here)
Cheesecake factory (Another must have! 4 OMG stars)

2010-08-02T15:24:00.001+08:00

"It's okey not to know something," Shay said. "That's what makes us human."

No matter what Mr. Philosopher Next Door thaught, there were things i knew for sure: That i had been loved, once, and had loved back. That a person could find hope in the way that a weed
grew. That the sum of a man's life was not where he wound up but in the details that brought him there.

That we made mistakes.

I closed my eyes, sick of the riddles, and to my surprise all i could see were dandilions - as if they had been painted on the fields of my imagination, a hundred thousand suns.
And i remembered something else that makes us human:
faith, the only weapon in our arsenal to battle doubt.

- change of heart: Jody Picoult-

- Blogging on the move with BlogPress-i *heart* iPhone

Half of a whole

2010-07-27T08:01:00.012+08:00

To my knight in shining white Cervelo, handsome CSC jersey and glimmering Sidi shoes,

you make my heart rate go more than 80%

you make everyday like running a half marathon

and for your love i cycled 45KM around Phuket

Who needs Robert Downey Jr when i have you?

you will always be MY Ironman :-)

Happy 1 year honey!

Thank you for 365 colourful days.

As long as the wrong feels right.. It's like I'm in flight

2010-07-26T16:32:00.002+08:00

Everyone has a conscience decision when falling in love. There are no accidents.
There is always that one point in time where u still have the choice to either go through with it or back off.

There will always be that one line which once u cross, you have made a conscience decision to be in that relationship. If you are already in a previous engagement than that line also means that you have made a conscious decision to cheat.

This line might be blurry, but it still exists.

Nobody falls in love accidentally, despite what the crooners sing.
Everybody has to owe up to their own actions and not just keep blaming the universe for their own screw ups.

You yellow rat bastard!

2010-07-22T09:02:00.010+08:00

After 5 days, the jet lag has not gone away. Ive tried sleeping it off but it doesnt seem to work so ive resulted to drugs.
Just pills that help u sleep at night la my dear. And triple shot lattes during the day. Wheeeeeee....

Going on the past 2 weeks trip has been such a long secret dream of mine and now i can finally cross that of my list. You know.. that things to do before Im 30 list.

Summer up east was just hot and dry and regardless of the buckets of water u drink, your pee still turns out dark. While British summer as you all know it, is just totally bollocks. I was dressed for NYC's heat, so I was totally unprepared for Shrewsbury's cold and windy mornings.

MHM actually made a long list of things that we did there, but maybe I'll save that for another day. This week my mind can only accommodate simple tasks like uploading pictures and short captions.

you yellow rat bastard!

meeting this gal for the first time

Central ~~Perk~~ Park

I saw Elmo!

it was so hard to keep my eyes open during the show
because i was so tired from all the walking we did during the day

Come drink from the crazy cup

2010-07-19T11:07:00.003+08:00

After two weeks, i feel like James McAvoy (yumm..) in Wanted. The day after he shot the whole fraternity dead.

The only difference ..

I still cant shoot a curved bullet.

No. Liz Lemon wasnt there.

Here's looking at you kid!

2010-06-25T22:54:00.007+08:00

So Kinabalu was totally exhausting but indescribably beautiful. I wished people told me the whole truth when they told me stories of their climbs because i nearly gave up at one kilo meter to the top. But there wasn't any stairs to climb down and waiting in the middle meant freezing to death, so i just slogged through. Little did i know it was a common occurrence for climbers.

Im at the inlaws now, stomach full of the infamous koey teow ganja and the atmosphere festive. Family, friends, lovers and lover's ex lover all together in merriment.

Relationships are a funny thing, and these past few weeks ive heard a lot of status changes. The divorced married, the engaged seperated, sweethearts to friends, singles to couples.

I read this somewhere :

"An older woman told me something that stayed with me. I asked her how she stayed married so long. Her reply, ‘We never both fell out of love at the same time.’ I love that, because no matter how much we want to deny it, there are times we want to throw our boyfriends or husbands overboard—and vice versa. But as long as someone is trying, then you can make it!”

And i think, that just says it all. Relationships are not perfect and needs a lot of hard work. But at the end of the day, you should never give up. Once one of you throws in the towel, everything just falls apart.

Optimistically, maybe in some ways its a good thing. Maybe its a sign from God that it wasnt meant to be. And He's saving you for even worse heartache later in the future. If it was meant to be, you will be together again regardless of what happen. But if you dont, then have faith that God has better plans for you.

p/s : to my dearest beloved, thank you for being there for me throughout that torturous climb. I dont think i could have done it without you.Hugs hugs. KISS kiss.

Traffic jams depress me

2010-06-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

Working in this line, doing what i do means having to do a variety of weird, if not stressful things. As how Shahrukh Khan says it "occupational hazards" ( i swear to u there was this one time i heard his interview on the telly and i was so blown away when i heard him say that. And then on the same show i heard Anil Kapoor say " terrantial rain" and again i became so amazed! Maybe im underestimating Bollywood actors?) anyway.. Back to my main point .. So yeah heres a list of things i was able to jot down while waiting for my 1 hour BER test to complete. In no particular order:

1. having to use questionable toilets ( because sometimes the nearest gas station is miles away so u have to make use of the substations toilet which normally would have gone through a hit and miss session by a gajillion of men)
2. being the only person with a uterus in the vicinity 90% of the time ( there ARE times that i wished i had a penis instead, and not because it makes work better, but just makes certain things a little easier. But fear not being the only girl around does have its perks *wink wink*)
3. having to work outstation nearly every single week or on average about 7 days a month away from home. Which means an unpacked bag sometimes needs to be repacked again which will result in me just leaving whatever's in the bag and just throwing in additional stuff.
4. working odd hours. After office hours to midnight and once in a while in the wee hours of the morning. Although its still not as bad as one of my girlfriends who works weekends, and late nights every other day.
5. Driving alone for long hours to remote sites. It gets really boring and sleepy so most of the time i have to entertain myself by doing silly stuff in the car. Singing at the top of my lungs, do a little jig, making fun of stupid adverts on the radio, laughing to my own silly jokes..etc

I know! So sad kan? :-)

- Blogging on the move with BlogPress-i *heart* iPhone

And id rather hurt than feel nothing at all

2010-05-21T22:12:00.004+08:00

Muka suffer for running a 15 KM race without training. Serves me right.

Never again will i do this!!
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I meant running without training you nincompoops!
Im still going to be racing. Already registered for a relay with a bunch of crazy people this November. ;-)

I'd better start running now!

:-)

2010-05-19T10:57:00.003+08:00

In your ocean I am ankle deep

I feel waves crashing on my feet

It's like I know where I need to be

But I can't figure outI can't figure out

Just how much air I will need to breathe

When your tide washes over me

There's only one way to figure out

Will you let me drown?

Hey now this is my desire

Consume me like a fire

Cause I just want

Something beautiful to touch me

I know that I'm in reach

Cause I am down on my knees

And waiting for

Something beautiful

And the water is rising quick

And for years I was scared of it

We can't be sure when it will subside

So I won't leave your side

No I can't leave your side

In a daydream

I couldn't live like this

I wouldn't stop until I've found

Something beautiful

But when I wake up

And all I want I have

You know it's still all I need

Something beautiful

Note: Not by blog owner :-)

Di pintu sorga

2010-04-19T16:01:00.002+08:00

Faith..

.. is believing and relying completely in the power from above.

-Krabi. April 10-

Kari kepala ikan ayam madu

2010-04-07T09:46:00.004+08:00

The month of April and late March has me pre-booking my calendar weeks in advance and seen me scampering around planning surprise birthday dinners, weekend holidays, outstation work ,FAT (Factory Acceptance Test) Sessions and what not.
Im not complaining tho, because this kind of works means an average of only 2 days per week in the office, less ironing and jeans jeans and more jeans! And im loving this work pace , a big change from boring 9-5 office work. Now, if i could eliminate the redundant, boring and empty meetings, reduce the number of procedures to get things done, eliminate protocols and add some postive work attitude in everybody than this company would be perfect! (nearly..)

This month we're also trying a low carb dinner diet, which just means that we (I) pig out the entire day but try to limit my carbo intake and increase the amount of veggie for dinner. Please dont ask me why.

Say hello to Tory

2010-03-28T21:20:00.003+08:00

MIL bought me anthuriums to add to my tiny collection of plants. Bertha and Roberto passed the one month test. Which means that they didnt die or dry out on me within the one month ive had them. :-)

So say hello to Tory.

The twins B & R are on her left and right. Shes the pretty one in the middle. Lets see if she'll survive the next 30 days.

I love you like chocolate and peanut butter brownies

2010-03-24T16:06:00.006+08:00

Ive turned into the Domestic Goddess these past few weeks. (You know how Nigella Lawson can be all sexy and sultry, a little perasan, make simple food but edible? Well yeah im a little bit like that but with smaller boobs)
I cook dinner nearly every other night and ive even cooked brownies! from scratch. all on my own.

Of course its not like its gourmet cooking but hey one step at a time la kan?

apa yang penting kerjaaaa sama!

Tonight would you mind if i took off my halo?

2010-03-12T10:46:00.005+08:00

I have two potted plants at home now. Roberto (not unlike Roberto Carlos.. and im not even a fan!) and Bertha. Cats are too heartbreaking to take care off , so i decided on greenery to make my day. Children you say? Oh they're just too much trouble and could be just as equally heartbreaking as cats :-P

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So i was reading the newspaper today, and other than the fact that my alma mater is top 10 in the list of best schools in Malaysia, what attracted me the most was the news of that big shot movie producer Neo and his tales of infidelity ( man.. what a way to shoot to stardom. Ive never even heard of him before if it wasn't for this) His story was also told in the news last night and there was so much drama with reporters and fainting wives and shouting men.

I think men and woman have different definitions of cheating. To a man, normally its the physical relationship. To have sex, to touch, to kiss, that's only when they consider it being unfaithful. But to a woman, i think the scope of cheating is a bit wider. To have too close a relationship, to enjoy too much of another woman's company, to have an intimate dinner/lunch/meal of two, to go out for date's/movies, to lie, to hide facts, to name a few. It varies i guess from one woman to the other but basically thats the general rule.

In Neo's case, he has totally crossed all existing boundaries in a marriage. What amazes me the most is not him but how his wife's forgiveness towards him and how she was willing to face the media in order to help her husband. Of course she is not the first person to do it and i still wonder whether its just another publicity stunt but it still takes a lot of patience, courage and determination to do what she did.
And most of the time, when things like this is heared, not only in the news but among friends or acquaintances it still gets me thinking of who to blame. Whats good is in the end, both parties ( the cheating man and the other woman) have to suffer and face the consequences of what they have done but whats really bad about it, is how they have drag everyone around them into it. Innocent people who after one stupid mistake (which is not even theirs) , will have their lives changed in so many ways.

I'll never be the same , if we ever meet again

2010-02-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

So the lamb chops were a bit of a disaster, overcooked and the sauce was a bit too much on the sour-ey/orang-ey side although the veg were excellent and the sauce actually went very well with cauliflower, peppers and carrots!

Nvm.. a proper visit to a real butcher and a new recipe will be planned soon.

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i discovered again my old love, in the form of a blog that i visit so often before but got lost in server problems and 404 errors...

but now shes back! (and shes been back for quite a while i see) and the feeling is like berjumpa dengan cinta lama...so much so that when i saw her, i wished the office work would stop coming so that i can read her till the end.

aaah.... Lin... such a sucker for mindless chatter..

Karate chop

2010-02-17T10:55:00.002+08:00

I is trying out this, this week.

i love cookingforengineersdotcom.

Now where do i get a food thermometer... mmmmmm

The one where i miss Cat

2010-02-13T00:23:00.001+08:00

Animals are like human too. When u take them away from their home to a strange place, far away from familiar things, from the things they love, they too cry out in pain. They too feel a sense of lost and sadness. Confused, they wonder aimlessly looking for that knowing face or that comforting smell. In the end, when there's nothing left to do, no way to get back home, like humans too.. they run away. Either to search for a new place to call home or just to run away from the pain and utter heartbreak.

- Blogpress on iPhone-

Semicolon capital O

2010-02-04T16:16:00.002+08:00

People like me shouldnt have diaries, or at least shouldnt be given any free ones. I was cleaning the office desk this afternoon (for the lack of anything better to do) , and while i was trying to decide what to do with the stack of office diaries that i have since 2004 (!) , i skimmed through them one by one and its amazing the things i found written in them.

Theres the normal doodling that you do in boring meetings, and the conversations or gossip you have with colleagues when u dont want other people to hear, list of monthly spending and even ticket stubs from movies i went to complete with names of the people i went with. But i guess the most bizzare ones are the conversations that i have with myself.. .. random jottings that makes me wonder what was i really thinking about then...

2006
"We must overcome our fears of making the wrong decisions. Without a doubt you're going to screw up"
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"Success is truly the result of good judgement. Good judgement is the result of experience and experience is more often that not is the result of bad judgement. When people succed, they tend to party, to celebrate, yet when they fail they tend to ponder and begin to make changes that will enhance the quality of your their lives"

2005
"I should leave him because.."

Im not even sure who i was going out with then.. ha ha

So i beg you.. tell me ..what DO YOU DO with your old diaries?

They'll be the king of hears and your're the queen of spades

2010-01-17T19:07:00.003+08:00

So I did my 10 km ‘larian terkejut’ this morning after being persuaded by my run-crazy friend. Its ‘larian terkejut’ because she only invited my on Thursday and I was only replacing another girl who couldn’t make it. (so if u search my number on the list of participants you would find it to be Liana instead of Lin).

I did it in about an hour and 23 minutes which is I’d say is the fastest ive done for that distance but If I was a part of the kiasu geng whose conversation normally sound like “oh man.. I only ran 56k yesterday and 25 k this morning, I have to step up my game! .. I only did 10k in 30minutes but you did it in 29 minutes 52 secs.. youe so fast! Auuw if only I was 3 seconds faster I would have done a personal best!” … I would be beating my self with a stick just about now and starving myself from a decent lunch as a punishment for being so slow.

But since I come from a group who goes “ Lari? Takleh laaa nanti aku sakit belakang/lutut/tulang selangka (replace appropriate body part)..Lari? eh tak hitam ke
nanti? … alaaa joggin ni boring laaaa…” well then I might as well call myself Speedy Gonzales!

Ok im off to take a shower and a pig out session for lunch because ~~im worth it~~ I deserve it!

The year that was

2009-12-31T16:39:00.007+08:00

8 hours to the end of the year and im in PD enjoying this huge apartment with a couple, a sick husband and a restless 3 year old who cant wait to go to the swimming pool :)

This year, after a long christmas holiday i decided to extend my New Year's weekend and took another 3 extra days off. We're moving you see, so partly is so that we can move out all our stuff by the end of the month and partly becayse my head and body is dis attached from each other. While my body might be physically at the office but my head is already all over town.

So lets get to the usual stuff. The yearly list of resolutions fulfilled, activities done and places visited. So in random order the Yearly Ten ( Taken from the Daily Ten. Channel 712.. anyone?)

Got a ring tattoed on my finger.
became a PADI member at last, after 4 years of waiting.
Visited Jakarta 3 months in a row.
Ran the longest 21km of my life in a proper race and finished it!
Belajar erti tree pose,chaturangga and lovin it.
Phuket drift. Cycled my first 43km on foreign land.
Morgan Page - Fight for you. 3 different remix versions on my ipod.
Joined a gym!
Found a cat, lost a cat.
500 days of summer.

So here's to a new house, The Killers concert and more and more travelling next year!
Happy 2010.

Two Owh Owh Nine

2009-12-30T23:26:00.003+08:00

I was gonna make a collage of pictures from 2009 but then i remembered that my portable hard disk had gone berserk a few weeks ago. So not only have i lost pictures of 2009 but 2008, 2007, 2006, 2005 AAANNNDDDD two thousand and FOUR.

:(

should i pay 700 bucks for 6 years worth of pictures?

Like Ali in the jungle, Like Nelson in jail, Like Simpson on the mountain

2009-12-23T15:48:00.002+08:00

In the face of adversary, you can either show your anger and go against them with a heart full of venom, you end up poisoning yourself.
Or you can accept whatever that comes as a challenge and prove them wrong.

alaaa biasa la kan.. What doesnt kill you makes you stronger right?

It doesnt matter anyway. Its my last day of work for the week.
Tomorrow im off for some sun, sweat and sunblock.

You guys can just go screw yourselves silly.

The one where Inglorious Bastards were gory

2009-12-07T08:18:00.005+08:00

Bulan itu bulan cinta

2009-12-02T19:21:00.001+08:00

I just wrote a wonderful girly post on my mobile. And now its gone!!

Preparing myself mentally to watch sappy teeny movie with hot hunky shirtless teenagers.

Let the howling begin.

This is the fast life we are on a crash course

2009-11-25T15:43:00.001+08:00

See! Im swamped with work. Do you believe me now?

I finally got blogpress to work. Thank God for smart phones!

- Blogging on the move with BlogPress-i *heart* iPhone

Mais qui est ce qui m'a dit que toujours tu m'aimais?

2009-11-11T14:25:00.006+08:00

I is missing

the feeling of weightless-ness
the green sea monster
french blonds in wetsuits
teh tarik kaww
late night shisha
kamu

You have no idea the enormous collection of delicious photos i would so love to put up here..

Tapi karang mati kene panah petir pulak kan.

*dush*

Isn't it about time you stuck up for me?

2009-11-09T09:59:00.005+08:00

"....It makes that perfectly clear at the beginning of the movie, but it is a movie about love. This is a story that most people can probably relate to, unless you are one of those lucky people never to have been on the losing end of the game of love.." - 500 Days Of Summer review.

The lines in this story would have sounded so corny if it wasn't so real. Words that u and I have spoken maybe more than once while we were growing up.

Maybe this story didnt really make that big an impact as i believe im one of those lucky ones who end up with the love of their life. Although I wouldnt say my first love coz I fell that deeply in love too long ago with a boy i knew id never be with.

But I can imagine and maybe even relate to that crushing moment when u feel like you've lost the best thing u ever had. How the pain feels so real, as if you were physically hurt. One time too many have i seen these incidents change a person, a friend.

Whats great about this movie is how it shows how when people remember a past relationship, they may not remember every detail in order. Thus how the story jumps from day 1 of Tom's relationship with Summer (which how the the name of the movie came about) to day 327 and then back to day 51. People choose what they want to remember. And most of the time they only remember the good, and none of the bad. Which normally makes it even harder to move on.

Maybe 'The One' is overrated. Maybe love to one person is just a series of coincidences that only feels siginificant to one party but means nothing to the next.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Go watch it already! If you dont feel anything after watching it, then i dare say u have never been in love.

Even if you dont want to watch it for the story line, watch it for the soundtrack. It is... how do u say it?.. Je ne sais quoi...

A moment
A love
A dream
Aloud
A kiss A cry
Our rights Our wrongs
A moment a love
- Sweet Dispostion -

Im runnin this like like a circus

2009-11-01T20:56:00.003+08:00

Do u know how sometimes u feel so strong a feeling towards another person.. you wish so hard it could be interpreted physically. Yesterday i was so mad at somebody i really wanted to physically hurt them. You know the kind of anger that you have no way of showing that in the end it just comes out as tears.

Maybe its the same feeling when u feel like your heart is bursting when you're in love with another person. Or the kind of sadness when u break your heart for the first time, and even though its just emotion, you could physically feel the pain as if a knife went through your heart.

This is Roc Nation, pledge your allegiance

2009-10-27T10:39:00.003+08:00

So i aged one more year today and instead of fretting on how closer to Thirty than i am to Twenty Five, i am looking at the glass half full. Im saying that i have TWO more years to do all the things ive wanted to do before the big Three-Owh instead of one. ha ha..

mmm Ive crossed out getting a diving license from my list. Too bad i didnt kiss Kris Dayanti when we went to watch her last Friday ( which was awesome and her singing Menghitung Hari made the one and a half hours wait worth it) cos then i could have crossed out No 4. hee.. Alaa...superstar? rockstar? boy band? theyre all the same and whos couting pon kan?

Well some people take a day off from work on their birthdays, which i think is such a brilliant (!) concept so im taking half a day off today and treating myself to a spa, all expenses on me! Hey you need to give yourself a gift too you know?

So happy birthday to me. A year older, bolder, prettier, wiser and maybe thinner?

p/s im already starting to eat like a fat girl trapped in a thin girls body. *whining* cant i start eating healthily once im fat with sagging breasts and cholestrol level off the charts?!

have you ever had shoes without shoe strings?

2009-10-14T15:11:00.004+08:00

I actually understand this joke. Ive even USED those anti-static straps!
OMG. How geekier can I BE?

chop.

Ive only used it for work u morons! not for coitus.. ahem..

You have no idea how good this feels

2009-10-07T11:47:00.006+08:00

So it may have taken me 4 years, but at least im finally able to cross this off my list

Its official people. Im now a certified PADI diver and it is an indescribable feeling !

Diving is like sex, you're nervous the first time you try it but once you've done it, you want do it again.

and the more you practice and the better you are at it!

"I don't like perfection, its very dull"

They made a statue of us and put it on a mountain top

írhatsz bejegyzéseket!

They call me an alien, a big headed astronaut

Its over and done

Self preservation

Without hope or agenda

All things equal..

Where i shall be

Be still my heart

Four O four

It's always darkest before the dawn

My camera shy cat

Everything else is secondary.

Stay Hungry, Stay foolish

oh this is funny

Joyeux anniversaire

Nota utk Cinta

Salamba Sirsasana

Everyda-ay Auwm Shuffel-ling

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everytime I load my page. Apparently it kept redirecting the blog to blogroll.

After removing the Blogroll gadget it is finally OK, but i cannot revert to the old template as it will crash again.

So for now this shall suffice.

Regular (or not so regular heh) updates will continue as normal.

Glee Project

Say something nice

one step forward or one step back?

I am a fan

Someday, I’ll be living in a big old city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean

My attempt at fiction

I'll see you again, on this side or the other

Rojak buah

The wheels on the bus go round and round

Things i think about while i sit as secretary in competency interview committee

Upin dan Ipin

When i'm standing on the yellow line

Kenapa semua gambar saya penyet?!

Word

I hate it when this happens

soon

Like a BOSS

Owh Emm Gee

Apple Crisp My Crumbling Heart

Auto-fix

Saya dan kucing comot yang comel

Sepatu tinggi di Milan

I know my Kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes

Tentang saya

Side crows pose

Regrets and mistakes, their memories made

Maybe God made it rain so that you would learn to appreciate the sun

Aku mungkin tidak bisa ke bulan, tapi paling kurang ke matahari?

If Puteh went to the office

Pink is the new black

FML

Take a bite of my heart tonight

To the core

Muka buku

cause baby you're a firework

Downward dog

Booyah

The white one

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.

Office in a box

Syawal

Pecah kaca pecah gelas sudah baca harap balas

Hello Clarice

4 years in a row

Rock Bottom

Epal dipotong comel

The long overdue post

Half of a whole

As long as the wrong feels right.. It's like I'm in flight

You yellow rat bastard!

Come drink from the crazy cup

Here's looking at you kid!

Traffic jams depress me

And id rather hurt than feel nothing at all