The wheels on the bus go round and round

Failure is part and parcel of learning and I'm still coping with the concept.

As arrogant as this may sound i am not so familiar with it. I'm used to working hard and
achieving my targets.  But sometimes you have to accept that not everything is within our control.

I know what im facing is nothing compared to what other people are going through , death in the family, losing jobs, not having enough food to eat, earthquakes, divorce etc

but in my tiny little world it can cause ripples.

I know what doesnt kill you makes me stronger, but a few recent events is making me feel lost and dejected, so let me dwell in self-pity for awhile.


Regular programme will continue after these messages.... 

Things i think about while i sit as secretary in competency interview committee

I'm a GIRL!

I'm a nerd!

I'm a fish!

I'm a fan!

Upin dan Ipin

My niece reminds me of this dancing baby.

:)

When i'm standing on the yellow line

2 weeks ago i was supposed to have a nice 4 day vacation sipping liquid oxygen and baking myself in the sun. Last week, i cancelled a 3 day driving/cycling/eating trip for said 4-day vacation. Within a span of a month i have missed out on two jalan jalan expeditions for reasons i shall not mention here.

And after all said and done, i'm left here frustrated like having an erection in the middle of the day and seeing nothing to fuck.
God knows how much i love travelling and need a decent holiday!

I miss the heavy beat of my heart seeing the blue darkness underneath me as i swim above a 600m deep underwater ravine.
I miss the dirt on my face as i walk along busy sidewalks filled with traffic and honking cars.
I miss complaining about the slightly dingy hotels and the lack of water.
I miss heat thats so hot, a glass of Coke feels like drinking a cup of heaven.
I miss walking till my legs hurt that at night i just collapse into bed and fall into slumber in a blink of an eye.
I miss cold thats so numbing, your hands freeze and your lips go dry.

I'm in pieces
It seems like peace is
The only thing I never know
How do you get up from an all time low

I can't even find a place to start
How do I choose between my head and heart?

till it ceases I never know

How do you get up from an all time low