I am who i am because of everybody

I am the one wide awake at 1 am
I am the one who sleeps and then awoken
I am the one with the stupid dream which got her into trouble
I am the one whos either still jet-lag or marginally insomniac
I am the one still learning and has more to learn
I am the one thinking aloud
I am the one wide awake at 1 am

inspired by this which i saw in the underground tube recently.. It might not be as good.. but could just be as crappy.

I will follow you into the dark

Death Cab for Cutie gig last Thursday, in Brixton Academy.
My first proper gig, so allow me to be "peghak". Crowd was surprisingly calm and from the reviews i read, that was the major complain about the whole show, coz the band definitely rawcked! Sound quality was superb although i wish i knew more of their songs. I was kinda hoping to hear something along the lines of What Sarah Said or maybe A Lack of Color.. but unfortunately they played more of their current songs. but still great show..great band.. not a waste.

At 4.13 AM

I love this.. especially the last 10 seconds of the clip..
heeeee.... :D

Kryptonite

Regret is such a dangerous emotion, it can either help you tread the future more carefully or consumes you slowly like an infection. Whats worse than dealing with your own regrets is seeing those close to you having to go through theirs.

Im back again in Bolehland still searching for a little normalcy, not that im saying the trip was abnormal in a bad way... but just a mixture of extreme euphoric joy plus complete and utter heartbreak. I guess its true when they say, to have everything in medium proportions. Its never good to have too much of anything.

So much to say .. so much to tell!. but that will have to wait.
h.a.v.e. t.o. d.e.a.l. w.i.t.h. j.e.t.l.a.g. f.i.r.s.t

and btw.. dont forget to tell your loved one you love them.

gunite

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time

Summer days in Paris are long and warm, where the metros can get hot and sweaty (not unlike the cramped up LRT's in Malaysia).. which btw boys.. if u clean-shave your armpits, makes you the most beautiful thing on earth. :). But despite the heat Paris is as always, magical as it has always have been. This time i guess i got to visit a bit more of of this city then my first visit here 6 years ago. True to its name, Paris is the epitome of romance...

Im in Colchester at the moment, enjoying a bit of outside-London air. Suprisingly what I noticed first thing about this pretty little town is that its full of mat salleh's, you know.. oraeng putaehh, which is so different compared to London which is just filled with foreigners.

You know what? when i first stepped into London, I realised that I have missed it to bits. You cant even fathom the feelings of longing i have for this city. Like a lover, I dont miss it only for its beauty and charms but its little insecurities.. its tiny imperfections. I miss running, scampering for the red busses, trying not to be late to class. I miss the pushing and shoving in the tube during peak hours. I miss the busy Oxford Street and its multi coloured people. I miss the parks and little markets full of interesting trinkets. And i miss the ananomity of being nobody.. and not having a care in the world. I miss just being here and just being me.

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Have u ever wondered why white noise is called white noise? Why isnt it called black noise? or brown noise for that matter? Ahhh... scientists are soo rascists.

You'll be my American boy...

he crazy i know what you thinkin
Ribena know what you drinkin
rap singer chain blinger
holla at the next chick soon as your blinking
whats your personna about this americana
drama am i shallow, cause all my clothes designer
dressed smart like a london bloke
before he speak his soute bespoke
and you thought he was cute before
look at this pea coat tell me hes broke

Will be away.. ay mayte!. Back to the place i once called home.
See you guys in a couple of days..
am all excited!
:)

We just sold all the floor seats

The word for the day is INSPIRE..
I am inspired and
I want more inspiration
and wish i can inspire others too...
cue *Chigaco -You're The Inspiration*


btw I am freezing in here like a living popsicle.
See.. Im talking peanuts again...Being stuck in the server room for 4 hours will do no one any good.
The internet is the only thing thats keeping me sane right now. SANE.. but not WARM.

I want hot soup........!

Sexy can I.. please pardon my manners

With the whirlwind of events in the local news and influential blogs... its getting harder to believe which party is telling the truth and which is not. Although i have to say that this time around its pretty obvious that tales are being told and twisted in more ways than one. Ive heard the obvious conspiracy theory and i have even been told of the unexpected twist.. which both seems just as absurd as the other. You try not to be caught up in their stories but how can you when their just screaming in your face. Calling to be read and discussed widely by every Tom, Dick and Harry.
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Coming back to reality.. to something closer to home.. i cannot help but be disturbed by stories of married men riding around with their single girlfriends and of married women who are slowly falling in love with boyish friends.
This time.. neither gender is to be blamed and both are at fault.. where obviously cheating is not a gender bias disease . I dont condone this plague but trying to be fair..there are two parties in any relationship and both can be at fault.. But as much as i try my best not to condemn a person less i was in their shoes..its just getting more and more difficult not to judge. Still.. you pray its just a phase..
Been there.. done that.. and you know it AINT pretty.