Sing me a song.. tell me whats wrong

The equipment is taking too long dowloading the ethernet software, after one minum pagi session and one CAT5 cable installation, it has only downloaded up to 50%.
so rushed off (at the groups notice this time.. mind u) to yesterdays CC for another dose of internet. Im lucky that addiction to internet is not as dangerous as ciggarettes.. alcohol.. gam.. coke and what not..
At least my body is toxic free.. although i wouldnt say my mind is..

After not exercising for more than a week.. dragged Is and Mummy tagging a long to the nearest park for a short work out session.
That was good. Saw these group of children teenagers playing basketball and aku dengan tidak malunya .. "Scuse me.. do u mind me borrowing ure ball for a while..so i can shoot some hoops for a bit?"
Oh kepuasan maksima.. dari awal pagi aku asyik menjeling.. watching them play.
I cant remember the last time i touched a balls.. ( oh.. that statement can soooo be misconstrued)
Okey.. the downloading is 92% complete... gotta run...

p/s: Aku rindu lah... sigh~*

Im just looking in from the outside

Its been 3 days without internet and i needed a fix.
Im starting to dream of computers and what not.
Very not good.
so slipped away for a bit to look for the nearest CC.
I was actually surprised there was a Victoria Station in the vicinity.
(maybe im underestimating this place)
oh yeah btw Im at the Island again. For work.
Its not that bad actually.
Got to eat at the famous gerai Ikan bawal goreng near the Prai Industry area.

Uh oh.. gotta run before they start missing me.
adios.

Disfunctional

Hujung minggu ini aku ke Felda Kratong menghadiri majlis perkahwinan sedara yg dekat.Oh you wouldnt believe the things that happened. Dari katak puru besar yang muncul tiba tiba di bilik mandi.. ke pengalaman tidur bertilamkan tikar berlantaikan papan.. dengan kedinginan malam di pedalaman tanpa selimut yg proper dan berjalan ke rumah dalam gelap dengan hanya ditemankan cahaya bulan dan gemerlip dari telefon bimbit. Oh.. it was like OBS The Re-enacment..
tapi itu semua is besides the point....

Minggu ini minggu yang pelik untuk aku. I no longer know what to feel and how to react. everything seems so wrong. and nothing is right anymore..
Sudden bursts of emotions (at any time of the day ..at whoever's presence) leaves me bewildered and i am forced to surpress certain expressions.
I wish there was a song i could relate to but too many tell the same story but yet none seems to be mine.

you know sayang?i could not stop thinking about you.

Ku harap mentari pagi tak menyambutku
Ku harap sinar rembulan tutup mataku
Selamanya

Sejak kau pergi tinggalkan bumi, tinggalku di sini
Turunkan matahari, usir bintang bintang
Putarlah utara ke selatan, untuk apa lagi semuanya
Ambilah jiwa retak ini

Ku tak ingin lagi
Putuskan ari ari bumi
Aku ingin pergi menuju abadi
Selamanya

i once told you that i was so afraid that id lose the ones i love...
you know what.. I still am...

I wish i could say it didnt hurt

"Hey dont you want to see it?!"
"The place where you'll be living and studying and developing naieve but pretentious world views that will come crashing..down the minute you graduate.."

And when it falls.. it falls down hard..I wonder how many years does it take before you get use to all these adult issues.. I guess thats why they say the lower your expectations .. the least likely ull be dissapointed..

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btw. I miss being all out crazy.( and crazy is supposedly my middle name). u know hands flapping about.. hair blowing in the wind..laugther which make your sides ache.

and today is suppose to be cleaning up the office day before audit but the boss keeps piling up the work..and to think that i came with my stripey t-shirt and all which apparently gave me super powers..Apparently im super funny today..(yeah i love the word "apparently".. sue me) bcoz my office mates say normally im a tad too serious?.. wtf? Moi? serious and reserved? Oh u must have mistaken me with some other crazy gal...

Okey Lin.. breathe.....

Aku suka jaipong kau suka disco

Is it scary that I know the M*D delivery hotline by heart and
that Dom*nos Pizza's number is on speed-dial in my phonebook?

Should i be worried?
Are YOU (yes.. you my dear) worried?

*sengih*

Will you teach me how to fly?

picture from http://www.flickr.com/photos/kkiram/

"Im amazed by them... I wonder how they do it.."

" why?"

"I dunno.. like how they can be together yet so apart..

sometimes i think that we think our ideas are so 'avant-garde' ..

we tend to forget that the fundamentals are there for a reason"

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The picture above was titled "Petaling Street 1" and after looking at it I actually felt like going there.. I love the hicklety-picklety of street markets.. or the ethnicity of them like the Pasar Ubud.. haggling with the vendors.. realising that uve been ripped off...after buying a paper bug at 5000 rupiah when the girl just after you got it for half the price..

Aku sekadar seekor ikan ramora

I liked hers so much im doing a version of my own. so heres from my Nokia 6280.
There might not be as pretty.. but they're just as personal.. :)





-lubang hidung- manggo lassi (insaf) - spring in summer (the Curve)-
-KLCC from below- lelaki plus seterika seterika plus lelaki- dodgie guys doing doing dodgie poses-
-turtle at the lake where i jog- bicycles on cakes- ash*af sinc*ir doing a monkey impersonation-