Dont cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me

Hari nih hari bermalasan untuk aku. Its a Saturday.. what do you expect? Its the day i feel like taking a thousand pictures yet none will be the right one.
Its the day i am feeling artistic.. but not autistic, mind you...

Hari yang pointless. A day without direction.
I need someone to take me by the shoulders and give me a good rattle.
Even then i still think i will be in this zombie like state..not knowing what to do with my self.

Aku suka gambar kasut tu. It reflects how im feeling rite now. Kasut tu nampak bersahaja. nampak cool. macam dalam lepak mode. dalam posing bersantai.macam high..tp bukan tipsy.. bukan macam aku dua malam lepas, lepas bershisha di tman tun..otak macam di awangan..
(arent you amaze how much i can say about a non-living, non-breathing object..siap looking bersajaha gituh... )

Dont cha wish your girlfriend was hawtt like me?..

I hate Mondays!

- it was raining really hard last night and I dont know why.. but i kept waking up every hour starting from 4.30 am..

- i feel like i have a hangover.. and believe me.. I dont drink and drive which makes my statement sound kinda silly since I've never ever drank before, then how the hell would i know how a hangover feels like, rite?!


- la la la la la... la la la la....

I wanna eat strawberys

"But its just like any other pencil ive seen.."

"That depends on how you look at it.It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on to them, will make you a person who is always at piece with the world.."

First quality: you are capable of good things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will..

Second quality:now and then I have to stop writing and use sharpeners. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he's much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.

Third quality :the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.

Fourth quality :what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.

Finally the pencil's fifth quality : it always leaves a mark. In just the same way , you should know that every thing you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be counscious of that in your every action.."

-Paulo Coelho : Like the Flowing River-

Di Kamus Hatiku Tiada Istilah Jemu

I am back in the island for a long weekend holiday. The sistah is back for summer holidays and ive come home to claim my gifts.muahahahaha..
The nenek and aunties are around and its all merry in the parents small apartment... but i need just a little time on my own to give way to my cyber cravings... I dunno but it feels like a little sanctuary for my soul.

I have so much to tell.. its like im bursting inside wanting to heave out all the stories but its been a long day, from early morning visits to the Pasar Basah in Gelugor.. (i actually helped Papa to buy groceries at a pasar basah man...No Carefou*e.. T*esco...G*iant and all you 'orang bandar' shops.. but a wet, slippery, hustle and bustle market...Im soooo proud of my self ) to phonecalls from the office.. helping out with the Nasi Ayam lunch and a very long unplanned shopping spree..Yes a long but definitely fullfilling day...

Anyway you guys have to go and watch this.. its hillarious! *click*


and.... i know this is like soo last month.. but I heart lagu Jaclyn Victor & Rio Ferbian - Ceritera Cinta

The one with..

feeling

B l e a r g h

kau tau tak betapa susah nya nak buat perkataan tuh kalau guna html manually?
but I cheated. used the automated compose window.Although i would have loved to do that dengan tangan kasar ku ini if i didnt have a life have that much work . Programming can be very soothing you know..(you see an L hovering like a halo dontcha? :-p ) tapi dont you think the word and the colours seem a bit oxymoron-ic?

searched go*gle fot appropriate images. Tak sangka perkataan serandom bleargh actually had pictures for it.
Go*gle equalls GENIUS man..

The one with Willie Wonka and the 5 Golden Tickets

there were only 5 golden tickets in the whole world..
and i have one of them...
*smile*

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I am such a failure in doing the laundry. its not that i dont do it often enough. its just i usualy overdo it.its either too much soap.. not enough softener.. water temperature too high... and the list goes on.
This week I think i have succeeded in ruining my nice new (baru sekali pakai) brown cardigan (which is my one and only cardigan).. because after leaving it in a pail of water overnight, did i later realise that the label said "do not oversoak"..*tepuk dahi* i may have just destroyed THE carrdigan that made me look haaawtt ..(ah lin the lies u tell)...

better still i also managed to make myself a new set of bedsheets too... what used to be white with red flowers has now been turned pink with red flowers.. all because of a little red towel purposelyaccidently placed in the washing machine...but hey what a way to get brand new set of sheets.. for free! (luckily i washed the pillow case too.. so it matches the pink sheets) *double tepuk dahi*

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someone reminded me that humans are not machines. they do not come with a programmable chip..you should not go all technical on them. you cant expect to carry out a certain set of steps.. with specific set of rules and expect a certain outcome.most of the time.. you do whats best..and even if their reactions are not as you want it to be..you just have to..
.. as she puts "duduk sementa...and.. owk senapah.."

The one with the magic 8 ball

After 9 months into the new unit.. i can finally say that i have mastered the "i-have-no-idea-about-this-shit-but-i-know-i-look-confident-enough-to-pull-this-off", when the bosses sent me to this meeting which i had no idea what the issue was nor who the hell i was meeting..

Thursday evening : the boss came.boss gives me a bunch of papers. boss talks for 2 minutes.boss shows me new suggested design. ask boss how am i to justify new design. boss gives one single sentence. then says dont worry someone else will help to answer all the other questions. boss leaves. and i didnt even know whether someone is coming to the meeting or not.
now thats what we call faith, people

So this morning.I went .. i sat.. and i listened. Pushed what necessary document to the right person and just sat throught the meeting trying to look clever. Lucky enough the technical parts wasnt really hard to get. Although earlier before the meeting one of the guys... who thought i was representing CMU (a non technical unit) had the cheek to say.. "U ganti *** ke?..okeylaa.. tp nih very technical la.. ..." looking at me with the "im-sorry-but-i-dont-think-you'll-get-any-of-this-crap"..
sheeshh just because i came with my purple kebaya and all nicely dressed up dia ingat aku tak tau technical!...*exasperated hand signals*

so i realised things given time..will work out well.. as long as you enjoyed what you were doing.. as long as you wanted it to happen.. I worked for 8 months in the old unit.. and never a day did i feel happy about it.. never a day did it became easier..I knew first because it was a crappy job anyway.. and second because i really really dint want it from the start.. with the new job.. there were ups and downs.. and sometimes you really feel like just quitting and leave.. but if you stayed and worked it out.. slowly and maybe sometimes even painfully..i realised it wasnt that bad after all..

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There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you
And I'll look after you

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Ive always wanted great things in life.. amazing things.. and you know what?.. aku rasa dia amazing...
kau rasa dia trust aku enough tak to let me trust dia?

u wish it didnt matter

Everyday seems to be a constant struggle between wanting to do whats right and what may perceived to be right.Its so confusing that one no longer know who one really is. It gets weird as u start to lose yourself in the moment. Everything swizzles in this whirlpool like the Flying Dutchman and the Pearl..where when the sails intertwine..at one point they would be sucked into the unknown abyss of the sea, until they were set free.. although nothing is without consequences.. it gets tiring as u wonder whether your assumptions are just a manifestation of your screwed up subconscious or real life situations.. At one point when you start secondguessing yourself, then thats the moment where you ask yourself whether all of it is worth it..

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

Hari yang gila

I dreamt of him leaning over as if to kiss me..
and my friends were all watching... but as he got closer..
with this weird look on he face..he leaned down very low
and suddenly..
took a bite of the food on my fork..
and went away walking smugly...
they looked at me with weird wondering eyes..
and i sat there dumbfounded...
but hey dalam hati kecilku.. "boy..that was sexy"..

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As i stepped out of the car this morning.. in my red stripey shirt.. aku tiba tiba terpandang ke bawah and i saw ....
skin..
ish ish Pak Uda sungguh lah. dan aku pon membutangkan kembali baju..
to my horror did i then realize that the button had fallen of...
Aduh.. nak drive balik all 13 Km for another shirt? or to go upstairs and beg look for a safety pin...
Chose the latter.. struggling to look normal....
Sampai di atas.. bergegas ke kedai membeli safety pin...
Legaa..... What a way to start your day...

This entry didnt sound porn-ish did it?

the perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you,
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me,
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out,

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I won't wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire,
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes,

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

No I won't wait forever