Its not worth the drama

Hospitals are scary places. no matter how modern.. how expensive .. how elaborate the interior is.. nothing can camourflage the white clean walls of its earieness...
Today we visited a far-away cousin whos daugther had meningitis... the doctors said there was little hope for her..and the mother who has yet to lose hope on her daughter just sat beside her.. whispering positive words to encourage her to fight for her life..
as i walk through the halls towards the ICU, a group of doctors and nurses were pushing a bed towards the next block..and i was instantly reminded of Grey's Anatomy ..but the only difference is .. in real life it lacks the glamour... the drama and u face the reality of losing the person u love.. but still it couldnt stop from reminding me of Meredith.. and her merry men...

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On a lighter note.. the parents apartment has turned into a cozy living space... and the best part is.. the 15 metre swimming pool in the back yard! tak sia sia aku bawak swimming suit.. yeah you'd get the occasional little brats splashing about in the pool but holly schemolly what a great way to let of steam.. and just soak in clorin-bacteria infested water and swim away ure fears..unfortunately theres the problem of no streamyx.. but luckily Astro masih ada... so the remote control is MINEE!!!... allll Minee!!! muahahaha... its the best way to chill man.. the best...

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btw. aku tak suka RT*1. bole tak? aku rasa terlalu obvious kepropagandaan nya.
terlalu pro-ke satu arah.
biased.
boleh tak?

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in

I know this is soooo 2003 but its the first time i got one that works...
and since im currently in the area.. thot it would be nice to share where i live..
hehe..

I could be brown I could be blue I could be violet sky..

setiap orang mesti ada sesuatu yg dia secretly banggakan.
be it something small and insignificant or something out of this world.
so today after not visiting the cyberworld for a long time..( had courses to attend and the lack of internet connection at home) ada sesuatuh yang aku banggakan and that slightly made my day.. *smiles*..

btw the weekend was a great many events for a lot of "firsts"... from watching the gorgeous Joey G hosting a show to ogling at Ashraf Sinclair strutting down the runaway and then trying out the elements class at Damas (which proved that all the jogging and Cleo's 17-Minute-To-A Hot-Body-Work-Out certainly paid off)

yeah new experiences are just *yippiey-yeay-hops-around-giggle-like-a-school-girl* thingy. something to keep ure mind fresh and ure body alert with the new change.. but sometimes there are certain things thats just...."Been there done that yo!" and u find out theres just nothing to be bragged about..

Id go on with how i wish life was like this sand souvenir that my friend bought for me from Abu Dhabi which is super cool (attracted a lot of attention to my desk at work...-yeah i need to get a life) as the contours changes to a different pattern everytime u shake the container...but this entry is too uber-fun to get all melodramatic and psycho-analytic.. ( and i dont wanna risk kantoi-ing my such fabulous weekend) so im ending it here.

Its gonna be a VERY long weekend in 3 days.. dan aku akan pulang ke pulau.

Page Ninety Seven

...'No, he's not,'said the girl firmly.'But it has occasionally hapenned to him. And i know that if you had taken my question seriously, your answer would have been "Yes, I have".
All men, in all cultures and coutries, independent of any feelings of love or sexual attraction have all experience impotence at one time or another, often when they're with the person they most desire. Its normal'.
"But the story we're told is that all men can always get an erection. When he can't the man feels useless, and the women is convinced she isn't attractive enough to arouse him. Since its all taboo subject, he can't talk to his friends about it. He tells the woman the old lie "Its never happened to me before," He feels ashamed of himself and often runs away from someone with whome he could have had a really good relationship, if only he had allowed himself a second, third or fourth chance. If he had trusted more in love of his friends, if he had told the truth, he would have found out that he wasnt the only one. If he had trusted more in the love of a woman, he would ot have felt humiliated.'..

-The Zahir (Paulo Coelho)-

Cuba baca kanta cinta

Whaddya think?
I think its so not me.
But im not creative enough to design my own.
but i needed the change..
So here goes..

btw..
I hate that song..

Bila rasa gembira ..tepuk tangan

yesterday's lunch was at Nirwana Maju in Bangsar which makes the best sotong goreng and Pawakaii (comparitively to other nasi daun pisang shops) and i think i saw two familiar faces from highschool.. one being an old petsister who i used to be fond of and the other was an ex-boyfriend's ex-housemate.. never imagined seeing both of them together nor writing all that in one sentence..
since we were in Bangsar, decided to drop by at your-local-friendly-bookshop Silverfish books for the IamMuslim. so yeah i finally bought it , stil yet to read it coz im still going thru "The Zahir" which Aunty lent me..
proud to see some familiar names in it.. ( this is where I'd drop some names just to show that I know famous people thus am famous by association..hee)
which by the way ,i am also dating the abang ipar of one of them ..*ahem*

Excerpts of conversation published with permission :
*kambing: weyh, kira kau ni young intellect by association ka?
me: apparently I am!..wooohooooo ..ahahhaa
*kambing: keji tak consider diri sendiri intellect?
me: tuhla
*kambing: hahaha
me: aku baru nak add" and i didnt even have to be intellectual"..tapi lebih keji sbb mengutuk diri sendiri
*kambing: hahhaah ..keji = new word belajar dari nana
*names have been changed to protect the not-so-innocent

btw what a coincindence with books it was this week..I just finished another novel by Amitav Ghosh - The Hungry Tide which wrote a lot about the Irrawady Dolphins..
(Orcaella brevirostris).. and lo and behold.. there was a 2 page spread all about it in Tuesday's StarTwo..
what a coinkidink...

I am missing London again these days.. which hasnt been the case for quite a while..
seeing the alumni gathering pictures has certainly conjured up old feellings and sentiments..missing those carefree days where studies is the only thing u think about and where to go the coming summer or whether ud make it to the next Warwick Malaysian night..
but the past is the past they say.. its the present thats what matters..which have seen some slight changes in my weekly activities.. but that deserves another entry on its own..

edited : 9/4/07
Have read most of IamMuslim and it has been an interesting read and an interesting conversation topic with MHM. but yeah that would deserve a whole new entry all together.