Ramble
in making decions theres always that small window of opportunity which only stays open at a certain length of time..like in those time travel movies where the door to the other dimension only opens just for the moment.. and at times like these.. u gotta make that split second life changing decision
to stay in the stagnant present...
or to go for the unpredictable future..

because if u wait just a little longer..the window will be gone..and u might just lose it forever.

I wanna be lost...


just...

lost...

Mid life crisis - NOT

I got this from a forwarded email..

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along
with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling
insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get
scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is
that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or
mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would
be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the
comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a
constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great
after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not
want.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing
and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you
realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to
your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and
then secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is
drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay
where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe you can love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

I think someone hacked my yahoo account and changed my password..
Now i cant log in to yahoo messenger or check my Ymails...

Oh the Paaaiiiinn..... the anguishh.... the sorrooowww.......

* kneeling on the ground.. hands up in the air*... NOOOOOOOoooOOOOooooOOOO....

u have no idea how attached i am to my YM...
u have noo idea...

Two lines

How do u know somethings not right for u?...
when it has never felt wrong?

Last week I watched this..








and 7 things i learned...
1) Afdlin Shauki has the biggest and roundest belly ive ever seen..
2) U can "kutuk" any race openly when its in a comedy act..
3) Rashid Salleh is cute up close..
4) Harith Iskandar makes a bad Drew Carey...( but i dont think he was trying to be one anyway)
5) Ida Nerina has Super sunshine t*t*k... ( hey...i didnt make them up.. they did)
6) It pays to learn the names of people you deal with over the phone.. even when its just booking theater tickets..
7) These people get to goof around .. while being creative and get paid big bucks for it..I wonder how it feels being abble to do something u love and get money in return..