Monday, March 20, 2006

OMG!..
My handphone has been possesed...
It is now vibrating on its own..
without having to be triggered by a phone call or sms..
id be typing away.. minding my own business with the phone in my pocket..
and itd suddenly vibrate and when i check.. nobody is calling.....

spoooky...

Help!..

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Sebelum matahari terbenam

I mean, I always feel like a freak because I'm never able to move on like......this! You know...People just have an affaire, or even... entire relationships...They break up and they forget!They move on


like they would have changed a brand of Cereals!


I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with. Because each person have...you know,specific qualities.You can never replace anyone.


What is lost is lost.


Each relationship, when it ends,really damages me.I haven't fully recovered.That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because...It hurts too much! Even getting laid! I actually don't do that...


I will miss of the person the most mundane things.
Like I'm obsessed with little things.


Maybe I'm crazy, but...When I was a little girl, my mom
told me that I was always late to school.One day she followed me to see why...I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees,rolling on the sidewalk, or...ants, crossing the road...the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk...


Little things.


I think it's the same with people.I see in them little details,
so specific to each other,that move me, and that I miss, and...


will always miss.


You can never replace anyone,because everyone is made of such
beautiful specific details.


-before sunset-2004-

Friday, March 17, 2006

Sometimes I surprise myself at how calm i can be in (difficult/ackward/certain) *u pick* situations..
I cant decide whether its better to lack emotion and just feel numb
or to go on full swing...sparks flying..
seriously i wonder..

Thursday, March 16, 2006



go and have a field trip.. go on.. you know u want to... *click*
The one with the..

Its pathetic that i actually need someone to tag me before i can update..

How many schools did I go to?
Not as many as my brother Is la yang pasti. First school..Tadika USM!!woooo hoooo.. ( we USM kindy kids Rawck!) but i think kindergarten is not applicable in this category but what the heck..Im just amazed that i actually know people(just recently) from waaaaay back then..one Infant School and one Junior School in Leicester.(couldnt really remember what the name was but remembered having a very handsome teacher called Mr Rudon..).Sekolah Kebangsaan Sg Gelugor..It was the "sekolah Harapan Negara" in 1990 mind u..Tunku Kurshiah College from Form 1 till Form 5.. yeah I had a pretty normal Malaysian education upbringing... never really changed schools as there wasnt the need.


Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Obviously i am the School Nerd..had very big ambitions and very strict parents who expected high grades..Wasnt really much of an athlete or anything since I was really tiny..seriously I had a really small frame back then..Kalau beratur dalam kelas mesti 3 dari depan..


Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
Neither.. I was the studious kid.. but i wasnt really good at buttering up the teachers or anything.. I preferred to learn stuff either from books or by asking my smarter friends..but i definitely had a reputation in BM as "orang yg kene gi kelas tambahan for BM" .. whattaaa?!!


What was the biggest rule I broke in school?

I was skema.. and had skema prefect friends too.. muahahahaIf following Idlan's definition of rule breaking.. then NO .. tak nah broke any rule.. but I did climb the rooftop a couple of times.. which nearly everyone did.. and pernah gi tengok wayang 18SG or 18SX kut masa SPM week..which Im sure is not such a big deal...
owh... but I was once called in to the Wardens room with a couple of friends for "lecturing" some junior who "buat hal" in the internet world.. Dont ask how, why or what.. but she pissed of some seniors and me being one of the regular chatters was just there to see this kid being screamed at..


Three subjects I enjoyed

Physics - coz Mr. Nathan "you all nih hopelesss laaaa" ( God bless him ) rawcks!..I was onced made to stand up throughout the whole period for reading some trash Malay novel in class but hey I loved him man.I think Physics in F4 and F5 was what inspired me to take up Engineering for my degree..

Add Maths -(told ya i was a geek)..Just for the fact that I loved Maths.. and comparing to Further Maths during A-level and Maths in university, SPM Add Maths was easy peeeazy lemon squeezy...

Chemistry- ( yeah i know im supposed to tone down the freak-factor) but i cant really find other subjects other than this, English or PE la.and English was only fun if the teacher was fun.. and I hate having to do those PJK folios... but i loved PE in skolah rendah..Anyway i loved chem bcoz i loved playing with the chemicals and making things people change colour.. I wasnt really fond of my chem teacher then but I think she didnt to that badly...



Three teachers that inspired me

Cik Sarimah - She was this sweet teacher who taught art in Darjah 6 and 5. Although i sucked at art but she had a way to make the subject pleasant. .. and at that time she was young,easy going,loved to chat with the kids and loved cats..

Mr Lim - He taught Add Maths and he was also one of the reasons that i loved the subject.I dont think I was significant to him in class but I really loved the way he taught Add Maths. He made it interesting and he sometimes slipped in life stories related to Maths.

Miss Vicky - i cant really say why.. but she had an air of charisma in her.. and i always dreamt of being one of her cadet police girls.. but unfortunately was never qualified..(okeylah not one of the best teachers in school ke apa.. tp aku takdak idea nak letak sapa dah)


Tagging those who havent been tagged :

Ghoy - i hope THIS isnt the meme you were gonna forward to me
Lini - coz she needs to update her blog
Tsue - coz shes full of stories
Blanko - coz u need to blog about something besides work for a change. heh
Dann - coz i dont thin ive tagged him before
Ayyub - for the same reasons as dann
Stupid_o - sbb dia budak Tadika USM gak.. :D

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

misery loves company..
what is life without drama..
most of the time.. you go with the flow..
most of the time..

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Karena Chinta..

malam tadi gue pergi nontonin Garasi, filem indonesia baru itu ..
jalan ceritanya simple, boleh dikatakan predictable.. namun ada elemen yang mampu membuatkan ia menarik..ia mengenai dua cowok dan seorang cewek yang bergabung menubuhkan band bernama garasi.. yang baru gue tau rupanya bermaksud "garage" which is dimana lagu lagu mereka dihasilkan..
kirenya bisa gue katakan ia mungkin cerita impian setiap ahli muzik.. kerana mereka bermula dari satu kumpulan underground yg hanya menghasilkan lagu di garage dan akhirnya muncul menjadi salah satu band harapan dan ngetop di Bandung.
lagu lagu nya enak juga.. .. tapi gue rasakan lagu lagu garasi ini seperti gabungan Avril Lavigne dengan Linkin Park... alternative electronic rock bak kata satu website ini..gue juga suka di mana cerita ini mempamerkan satu persembahan kumpulan gamelan/caklempong yg kontempori dan sedikit berbeda dari alunan tradisional biasa.
dari segi lakonan, aktor yang memainkan watak Aga mengingatkan gue kepada Rangga dalam Ada Apa dengan Cinta.. tetapi lebih gantang dan keanak anakan..( jambula)...bisa cair dong ...bisa gue katakan mempunyai ciri2 cowok idaman.. pandai bermain musik.. mysterious.. bangles and barret.. ditambah pula jika dia pandei dlm pelajaran dan berpegang kepada ajaran Tuhan.. wah sudah pasi menjadi impian.. eh.. sudah tersasar pula...anyway secara keseluruhan, lakonan Aga, Gaia dan Awan masih banyak boleh diperbaiki..tetapi masing masing berjaya membawa watak masing masing..
Overall if u have the love for indie music, dan inginkan satu cerita yang ringan dan menghiburkan...then it is worth the 9 bucks..I didnt really know what to expect when i first booked the tickets .. tapi yang pasti gue pulang dengan rasa yang puas....