These days im forced to change my handwriting..to something more cursive..supposedly more matured.. so at least id look more like an engineer.. and not the 12-year-old that i am..

I have..

what do u say to a friend.. whos in an undefined relationship..
Do u tell them.. to fcuk it up..
Do u force them to put a title to it...
or do u ride the storm with them... and just be there when they fall..

but then again..defining things is overated..
how can u define perasaan?
how do u put it in a logical equation..
do u define it in a sonnet like shakespeare...
or in a poem like Auden...
one plus one doesnt always equal two...
in physics 2 opposite charges cancel off each other..
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Dan : And you left him, just like that?
Alice: It's the only way to leave. "I don't love you anymore. Goodbye."
Dan : Supposing you do still love them?
Alice: You don't leave.
Dan : You've never left someone you still love?
Alice: Nope.

..You don't understand
.. I'm not an empty seat anymore.
.. I'm different
.. Punch me I bleed.

Jangan berdiri dekat lelaki bogel

I love going to bookstores.. if someones dream job is to be a postwoman one of my dream jobs would be to be a bookstore assistance.. working in kino..or maybe mph...
i just love fact that people are strewn all over the place.. in couples.. or singles.. on a bench.. or on the steps.. by the bookcase.. or in the corner..all engrossed in their books.. i love the fact that people stand in front of the bestsellers case.. and stare at the books as if admiring an expensive painting.. i love the serenity.. and the the soft whispers of lips and the quiet turning of pages...
i do hope one day to find a guy who i can spend a quite afternoon in the corner of a bookstore..just sitting together..enjoying our own favourite authors....well one can always wish cant they?...

anywaaaaayyyyy....Ive been waiting for this guy for such a long time... i first saw him at the Sydney airport when i was 15.. and eventho it would only cost me 30 dollars then... my mom would never let me get him due do its lewd cover..but now after 9 years... i have him here in my hands... ah.. i just cant wait.. to feel him..
to touch him.. to read him from cover to cover ..( hey what were u thingking? *angkat kening*)...yeah... the litle "lelaki bogel".. tim allen :P

The over-due post

As part of our new-year-celebration-cum-lini's-hen-night, we rented an apartment in ampang...and thanks to this guy..i was able to hire a chef to prepare the food for a special private dinner..initially we wanted to have strippers... but did u know that it was a wopping RM500-RM800 to hire a stripper for forty-five friggin minutes..( i was actually surprised that stripper-services even existed in Malaysia) and the guy who offered cheaper rates was away in johor bahru that night..heee...so in the end it was just a simple but elegant dinner..in very romantic and relaxing settings...
although the chef arrived slightly late ( it was raining cats and dogs.. and kl.. biasa la jam) we were able to get everything ready before maghrib..
The dinner started off with a fresh salad of tomato, cucumber, olives, fetta cheese, onions,with olive oil and lemon dressing, prepared just a few minutes before the guest of honour arrived...
we then had morrocon style meatballs given an italian touch with pesto sauce and grilled peppers..this dish was slightly spicy but it kinda went well with the soury cheese..
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As our main dish we had Chicken roulade
( pronaunced roulaaaad and not rouled :P ) with a side dish of broccoli with cauliflower and béchamel sauce.. initially chef Alwi suggested pumpkin istead of broccoli- which we later found out was his signature dish.. but us girls werent really fond of the orange-veggie so we opted for broccoli ( i actually surfed the net to find what veggie/fruit would suitably replace pumpkin). The food was really rich and the chicken came with its own mushroom sauce which i really liked..
soo by the time for dessert, most of us were already really full..
but after some TV and fireworks, we topped it off with a dessert of dessert bread n butter pudding with custard sauce

all in all it was a good nite.. our bellys full.. the atmosphere cool and the fireworks pretty..id say a great way to start and end a year..my thanks to Daa for her creative mind and camera skills... Nogha, Tini,Fina and Che-In..too bad you couldnt join us zil.. and chef Alwi for his wonderful dishes.. to Lini.. i hope it was a memorable nigth for u...

u know.. sometimes i wish i talked like this... except, malborro lights instead of camel straights..

"There's no point to any of this. It's all just a... a random lottery of meaningless tragedy and a series of near escapes. So I take pleasure in the details. You know... a quarter-pounder with cheese, those are good, the sky about ten minutes before it starts to rain, the moment where your laughter become a cackle... and I, I sit back and I smoke my Camel Straights and I ride my own melt. "

my new year was filled with pretty lights and candles..how was yours?..